>>40299961
My cope is realizing I never had a chance to begin with. I never had any opportunity to troon out in my younger years (and even now).
It wasn't meant to be. By the time I'll be free enough to do anything it'll be too late (if it's not too late already).
I also tell myself I'll regret transitioning anyways. Every single time I imagine myself as a woman I feel nothing now. No joy, no sadness, nothing, and I take that as a sign of me just being a depressed loser instead of "dysphoric".