>>81778098
I'll never have a gf like this
fuck my stupid incel life

I feel si much better nd peaceful sitting in my room alone nstead of last night with all those ppl it makes me feel guilty bc Something like I love my family bt i csnt handle sitting placez like that. I jst can't nd it feels so uncomfy n scary compared 2 relaxing by myself. I mean that if my family never invited me then I'd never go to anything like that. So its a bit......I dint fit in there n its probly apparent. I dnt think ill ever go somerbibt like that again. I was so nervous n then I was so drunk ti get over being nervous so it was just like a day of self torture. I would like it if I could simply enjoy things but I cant. I think posting on here helped me a bit bc its grounding n like some things in life will continue as normal while it's chaotic around me. The thing is when am aff the pills i thunk in a backwards way ill be nicer to be around my family bc even thk they improve my mood they also make me isolate n just sit in my room taking pills alone. Am defs aff the drink neway. Cus I hadnt drank fir a good few months it felt quite nice nd I was like oh yea I remember why I like this now but it wwsnt really worth it as far as leaving warm pee n urine all over the place. I haven't ate today yet tho nd it's getting ate now.

>WW3 before I got a girlfriend