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8/11/2025, 5:25:08 AM
>>33483905
I feel like I’ve been a goddamn husk for years now, and I’m too fucking scared to tell people the real reason why I’m single, and it is from being groomed at 15 years old (I’m 22 now.)
Started with her messaging me on instagram, and since I didn’t have friends I entertained her. She asked if I had a problem with the age gap if her being in her twenties, and me being stupid as fuck, I agreed. She and I got a lot closer and she sent me messages about us trusting each other is crucial. Told a teacher about it offhand. (I forget the context of the conversation.) she told me to block her and I went my merry way for the next 2 years. Back then I knew how to talk to girls, but after stumbling across the messages over a year later it all fucking hit.
Ever since, I’ve completely stopped trying to talk to women. Not like I HATED them, just stopped trying to be sexually active, ignoring girls that have shown interest, feigning being oblivious, coming off as prudish or having social anxiety. The reality is I feel fucking sick.
I want to move past this, but I don’t know how or WHERE TO EVEN BEGIN. I guess the reason why I don’t flirt or “shoot my shot” is because deep down I don’t want to spread the ‘rot’ I feel. It feels like the part of me that knew how to flirt, talk to women in a sexual/romantic context has been chipped away from me. I want to move on, and live in spite of it. I have no fucking clue how to start.
>was she hot though?
Absolutely not, that’s the worst part. I don’t even think she was in her twenties. Imagine Megan fox except she smoked meth-laced cigarettes after a parrot tried nesting in her hair.
I feel like I’ve been a goddamn husk for years now, and I’m too fucking scared to tell people the real reason why I’m single, and it is from being groomed at 15 years old (I’m 22 now.)
Started with her messaging me on instagram, and since I didn’t have friends I entertained her. She asked if I had a problem with the age gap if her being in her twenties, and me being stupid as fuck, I agreed. She and I got a lot closer and she sent me messages about us trusting each other is crucial. Told a teacher about it offhand. (I forget the context of the conversation.) she told me to block her and I went my merry way for the next 2 years. Back then I knew how to talk to girls, but after stumbling across the messages over a year later it all fucking hit.
Ever since, I’ve completely stopped trying to talk to women. Not like I HATED them, just stopped trying to be sexually active, ignoring girls that have shown interest, feigning being oblivious, coming off as prudish or having social anxiety. The reality is I feel fucking sick.
I want to move past this, but I don’t know how or WHERE TO EVEN BEGIN. I guess the reason why I don’t flirt or “shoot my shot” is because deep down I don’t want to spread the ‘rot’ I feel. It feels like the part of me that knew how to flirt, talk to women in a sexual/romantic context has been chipped away from me. I want to move on, and live in spite of it. I have no fucking clue how to start.
>was she hot though?
Absolutely not, that’s the worst part. I don’t even think she was in her twenties. Imagine Megan fox except she smoked meth-laced cigarettes after a parrot tried nesting in her hair.
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