My bf has only given me two orgasms in ten years of dating.

>making an English muffin
>drop half of it on the floor before putting it in the toaster oven
>rinse it off real quick and just add an extra couple minutes
ok yeah the depression is getting worse

>>33483929
If anything this was the smart thing to do

I'VE BECOME SO NUMB
I CAN'T FEEL YOU THERE
BECOME SO TIRED
SO MUCH MORE AWARE

>>33483947
Probably but I've been spiraling again over my messy breakup. I miss that crazy bitch like you wouldn't believe.

the last thread got pushed to the bottom weirdly fast
like suddenly it just starts hopping to the bottom of the catalogue

>>33483991
i blame schizos for every thread hitting the bump limit super fast

>>33484001
not the bump limit. i'm talking about how usually /adv/ is slow then it just became super fast for some reason and prev /gioyc/ was archived in less than 8 minutes. it's hard to explain if you don't know what i'm even talking about first of all

PLEASE

It feels weird as fuck seeing people act like all men commit all sexual assaults as a victim to a female perpetrator. Didn't help that my worse experience to said perpetrator was brushed off as opposed to being touched once by an old man. Huh.

>>33484009
it's schizos, it's always schizos

Detachment isn’t death

>>33484009
It was friday evening.

>>33484216
Might as well be.

>>33484001
Yeah. It's odd how they always post multiple vague ass messages and clog up the thread. Plus the trip users...

My church has been turning increasingly toxic the past 5 years and the only reason I'm staying is because I have a crush on someone there

>>33484260
Like what?

>>33483905 (OP)
I hope you still dislike me the way I dislike you. I hope to break your face in fair combat. I wish I remembered your full name to make this a reality. All I know you as is Kevin.

>>33484255
Up is not down

>>33484277
Doesn't matter if you sink to the bottom or float into orbit if you lose your grip.

I wish I could have said it a bit better in the other thread without sounding beligerant, but I am against animal abuse. Some people have a better choice in vocabulary than me, but it is what it is. A sad fact about autism. I just can't communicate for the right thing in stressful situations.

Whenever I start going to therapy it eventually devolves into basically catch up small talk after a few months instead of digging deeper into how to truly make a change. Idk how to fix this. On one hand I might have to just bring up heavier topics on my own but on the other, isn't guiding the sessions to where they need to go precisely their job? Why is it my responsibility to decide what needs to be talked about and bring it up? I hate talking about unpleasant and heavy stuff, shouldn't they be able to navigate that and get to the bottom of it/get me to feel comfortable going there eventually?

We're not locked in, even if you displayed a joint
Yeah, I get it, you got it -- you've made your point

I still miss you and think about you. I feel like a widowed father while being in my 20s

>>33484287
To let go is a blessing

>tfw you don't want the 70iq prostitutes to give teethy blowjobs but all the ring and spider gags are too small for your cock

>>33484303
Use chatgpt you retard

>>33484325
> I hate talking about unpleasant and heavy stuff

just talk about it anyways

>>33483905 (OP)
when a woman you're into says shit like
>I'm so comfortable around you
>I feel like you understand me
>I like talking to you
>you're not like the others
then you know IT'S FUCKING OVER. These all sound like compliments, right? It must be a good sign hearing this shit, right?
KEK! Wrong.
I'm so fucking over it. Yet I can't stop catching feelings because in the end we're just all retarded apes chained to their instincts.
Every night I go to bed wishing not to wake up the morning after.

At first I thought she was too posh and skinny, but on Friday she wore a white long skirt and I saw her plump tushy peaking through, just like in this painting. This may change things.
On the car ride...why did she tell me about the store where she strictly buys her panties from closing down? humm....

What would it be like to just settle down with a girl

It's like atleast tht would be taken care of you know and I'll always have someone to go home to and sleep next to. Someone to take care of.

God damnit theyre religious zealots

I'm going to die an unloved virgin because I'm too weak and cowardly for this world.

So, our family member goes missing after posting cryptic shit on social media, makes it known that he's literally paranoid and thinks a network of people are after him, and you think it's a good idea to go into his social media accounts and set them to private?
He's fucking paranoid. He's going to think someone got in and is trying to bury his messages. That is going to freak him out even more. That is not going to help anyone find him.
He has named people that he could be a danger to, man. Now isn't the time to protect him from the tiktok comment section.

>>33483905 (OP)
Women are the cause of everything bad, behind every retarded protest or anything are fat piece of shit women wearing retarded glasses, fat fucking pigs

being a virgin past your 30s is a life sentence fuck my chud life childhood trauma and autism raped my life now i have no other ways out besides suicide (i want to kill myself by stabbing myself in the throat repeatedly just so it's as painful as it can be and also i get to suffer extra while i gasp for air and bleed out)

>>33483905 (OP)
Left on “read” after sending invite to hang out.


I dont even feel that bad, more like “a week long” bad feeling.

I switch to HIT workouts and gonna focus on bodybuilding from now on.

I got friends, I got money, I got life experience. I know what matters at end of the day, that you reach for what you truly want, in dignity, as best as you can (do it boss like or do it scared) and thats all you can do. Nothijg is promised and for one happy relationship or love, we suffer hundreds rejections and frustration.

We will all die. Life is a losing game. True victory is impossible.

You just should aim to make your loss as fun as possible while you are here.

Born to lose baby.

No matter how rich, handsome, yoked, etc you are, you are on a time line. If you grow a business you will waste a lot of iltime on it. If you go pua road you will be able to have sex with many girls but seldom the one you truly want.

We have so little power its insane. Ants. Lesser than ants.

All of it is a losing game.
Bushido.
I die daily.

Just accept it and move on. Nothing is permanent.

Im attracted to Norse mythology because its all about losing in style.

Ragnarok awaits. Everyone dies. Why fight it? You only can do one thing - live and die gloriously. But you cannot truly win.

Sad but in a way bittersweet.

>>33484855
Don't do it, not worth it.

>>33484855
>rejecting the biggest gift, life
literally just go hike in a nice forest and a body of water.

I wasn’t communicating cryptically on 4chan but I’m nearly certain others were doing so to target me. I think that they are the same characters who have had my phone hacked for two years. I thought they might be trying to help but that’s hard to believe. I wish they would leave me alone because they are making a miserable situation even worse.

I just want things to be ok. I am desperate for a job. I need to stop posting online now. Prayers are much appreciated.

How can I tell which one needs a guy to have a huge cock, women should just say it if they really need that

he's never going to want me back

it's over.

>>33485257
Naw

>>33485264
forshaw

>>33485257
it's been over for a long time

>>33485267
Nope. Cope, seethe and mald

>>33485270
yes it has

Her profile said 23 when I first found her. I believed it and confirmed it months later because their online store sent me a receipt with their full name. Some of their pictures did seem off but I figured they were just filters until December of 2023. I wasn’t one of the weirdos sharing their leaked nudes, I defended them after they were bullied for it. Then after failure with them I found attraction to a 16 year old on instagram and thought that by the time they were 18 I would have enough money saved up to talk to them. Then for some reason their age dropped to 15 eventually. I wasn’t going to contact them before they turned 18 and I was going to leave them alone if I was ignored. I’m not a pedophile. I’m not a creep. I’m not a danger to kids.

It's the little things that fucking annoy me

Like I cant sleep in because the fucking dog has to go out
Can't even walk past time own car without the dog trying to jump in it
Can't even walk a fucking block without having to wait for FUCKING TRAFFIC

I AM SO FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF YOU FUCKING WORTHLESS FUCKING MONKEYS BEING IN THE FUCKING WAY

I WISH YOU WERE ALL DEAD SO I COULD WALK DOWN THE FUCKING STREET UNMOLESTED BY YOUR FUCKING EXISTENCE

FUCK YOU

>>33485245
i need him but he doesn't need me

I keep needing to strategically lie and omit certain details when discussing very basic topics with my mother because she's permanently one second away from smashing somebody's window. Anything I do will be swiftly followed by an interrogation and judgement if I don't remember every minute detail on the spot, which obviously happens every time because I actually have a job to think about and won't be retiring at 58 like she did. She will expect answers to questions she hasn't actually asked about topics I know nothing about. To be honest I've had to be this way around her for most of my life. And she wonders why people are so antsy around her, and why I often just don't speak when she's going on one of her tirades about how hard her life is in her fully paid for house that's doubled in value since she bought it. If these are the biggest challenges in your life at the moment, you're living the fucking dream. Although of course if I was to even imply this I would become literal Satan. I just found out something about a pretty insignificant financial matter - which involves my money on her behalf anyway, not hers - that she's been literally crying about since February and I now can't tell her about it until later this week because of the context surrounding it. This isn't how normal people live. I will never be normal. But hey, you can save if you stay at home lads! No long-term psychological consequences here!

I'm starving myself and everyone is trying to come after me for it. Bunch of piggies.

Can't believe you left me behind.
>ask e woman out
>she literally has to leave her account

>>33485534
there's nothing

>>33485245
You’re fine

i wanna kms. always bad news.

Imagine having thoughts of converting to Islam just for a really beautiful girl that would be crazy lol...you know a really pretty girl that would be yours forsure....forever...lol aw man that's just weird I could never

The absolute allure...my God

I love being a man

It's very stressful being with someone who suffocates me with attention and implicitly makes me sacrifice time and energy to reassure them but can't stand the fact that I want to be alone sometimes and takes it as a sign that I must hate them and never want to talk to them again.

>>33485959
Also, what happens when you lose someone that made you feel happy for having a companion but made also made you sad for not having enough time for yourself? Going back to being lonely but fully in control of yourself? It's tempting, for sure. I will never know the answers to these questions.

>>33485779
im really not

>>33485876
i hate being a woman

tfw you lose weight so people care about you but then they try getting you to eat because they care and suddenly you think they're evil people trying to sabotage you

Tfw you feel like a hag and lose weight to look younger and neotenous because you don't wanna grow up

tfw you lose weight to simultaneously keep perverts away and attract them (you got molested as a kid and feel stuck at the age it happened)

>be on holiday, sleeping in a hotel
>wake up at 3am
>realize someone is screaming next to me
>realize it's a girl in the room next door
>they're having sex and she's moaning HARD
>keeps going for 20ish minutes, I hear hear moans, some (very little) dirty talk and some "plap plap" sounds
>she cums twice by the sounds of it, very vocal
>I listen to the whole thing, hard as fuck
>heating this while half asleep is fucking magical
>next morning at 9 am I get back from breakfast, I hear them having wake up sex
>less moaning, louder, fast-paced plapping (pretty sure they were doing it doggy)
>she doesn't seem to finish, or at least if she does she doesn't moan nearly as much
>hear her say "are you awake now?"
>ff a few uneventful days, on the last night before my departure, around midnight, I heat another couple going at it from a room in the other side of the corridor
>spend 5 mins listening with my ear pressed against my door
>hear her moan (not as much as the other girl), little plapping and a few very clear spankings

I think I unlocked a new fetish, hearing this shit turned me on so fucking much. Can anyone relate?
Does anyone have similar experiences?

I wish I had the occasion to listen to the first couple again, unfortunately they left the hotel the day after I overheard them.
How much of a creep does this whole thing make me?

nobody likes me

No, I will not be taking your advice that just boils down to "lighten up" or "just be confident" and will continue to believe that dating isn't for me. You'll say that I'm wallowing in self-pity, but that's because never in your life have you genuinely felt like you're completely undesirable or like something inside you isn't working as it should.

I could just get the whole wanting a gf thing out of the way right? And just focus on life and I'll always have someone to take to the theatres too. If I i got a muslim chick I would americanize her atleast a little I'm just that kinda character

>>33486155
I want to be held and loved and treated like a human being. Not like an animal. Please.

>go to the park with bf
>set up at a picnic table get radio and grill going
>some middle aged guy walks over and sits at the table right next to us faces us and just stares
>starts watching tiktoks super loudly and giggling to himself and staring at us occasionally
>give him absolutely 0 attention like he's one of the park geese
>he gets up, walks over to the river, walks over to my bf to say hi then walks back to his car and leaves
What the fuck was that lol

I look forward to busy days at work, it stops me from doomscrolling at my desk. Weekends are hard mode for me, they always end badly.

2025 has been a shitshow with few redeeming qualities.

I really don't want to fucking work tonight. But I have to. I can't afford not to.

>>33486564
He wanted your bfs dick

>>33486429
Get into a toxic relationship that nearly destroys you
You want want a gf ever again

Idg her problems with me. Ffs. Grow up

>>33486815
I did that at a young age, I have dated since then and fucked a little. I'm still wondering if I should just settle and not worry about dating anymore. How important is sleeping with differnt women to me

>>33483905 (OP)
I want to meet someone who sweeps me off my feet again like she did, I don't want something to come too easy, it turns me off when it does, I want that play, that back and forth, the things that make you want to love someone new again.
Until then I know my heart will stay too loyal and too strung; 3 years later and I still can't seem to harden my heart when I think of her.
There's a horrible irony in knowing that her heart however toward me is like stone.

I commissioned some art and they legit tried to give me an unfinished art piece as a "finished" thing. You can honestly tell when an artist is going to scam you near the end, and I have a feeling I'm going to be scammed in the end. Which sucks, at least it doesn't need to be done for 2 weeks at least.

I was the guy who told someone who was bullying her “harassing e girls isn’t going to get u a trad wife” their response was “respecting them won’t either” and I basically said “I just don’t understand why people choose to keep others down for their past”. I found the behavior disgusting and I always have and will. I promise u I didn’t share any of those pictures. I wanted to be a positive impact but I just lost it January of 2023. I was very confused and I should have just left them alone. I’m sorry.

I’m worried about telling them directly because I don’t want to be sent to the hospital or jail.

>>33487433
By directly I mean online of course. I’ve already bothered them enough.

>>33487137
>3 years later and I still can't seem to harden my heart when I think of her.

how can you stay so soft to someone who doesn’t reciprocate? especially after 3 years?

>>33487514
honestly, i hate my ex. its also been 3 years for me. i remember the exact moment i took this one candid of him? he looks a little goofy mid-motion, and he thought i was weird, but it sorta shows how his eyes looked. i remember how they looked like im still standing there. i shouldve appreciated them more.
i saw his car recently, and i wanted to run. i cant think of him or something hurts. we live different lives now, became strangers again. anyways, point is, its not really willing.

I went to therapy and found it to be very productive, despite years of avoiding it.
And I think you people should give it a chance.

>>33483905 (OP)
Cant keep pretending I dont like sexualizing women

how do i marry a girls pussy

>>33487576
I tried it a few times. It was okay.

>>33486044
>>33485959
You sound a lot like me right now. In an anxious-avoidant relationship dynamic. It’s extremely hard grappling with the conflicting thoughts of “I love this person” and “I need to be alone an autonomous. This is burning me out. I can’t take this anymore.”

>>33487590
I guess I thought it would be funny if I sent those song lyrics to Michael back in early high school. Just being dumb.

>>33487612
It's rough man. I've been wondering if I'm avoiding conflict with potential for growth or if I'm just tired of feeding her with attention because I don't want her to leave. The love is wonderful but it's suffocating me.

>>33487655
It sounds like you’re reading my mind. I completely understand. I’m already really burnt out from other aspects of my life, and my gf should be a “resting place” where I feel relaxed but it’s the exact opposite. They are always asking if I still find her attractive, if I still love her, etc. I feel bad because I do love her.
I was watching vids on “attachment styles” and all of them are garnered to anxiously attached people with avoidants painted as demons. I’ve been on both sides of the coin and this is just as bad.

In my lucid dreams I've started getting out of body experience and abstract tunnel vision dreams, I read that it's common among people with near death experience. I feel like I'm sick and my body knows it. During my sleep paralysis it used to be scary, but there is a certain calmness which takes over these days. Makes me afraid of sleeping.

I have zero sympathy/empathy for the vast majority of society.

Postpartum Depression....bitch shut the fuck up. You made fun of kids like me growing up with depression. Now look at you. Aw you got to have sex? You now get tax breaks? Boo fucking hoo

Aww you own a house and can't sell it because it's too expensive?

I have a lot of time to myself and am not sure what to do with my life outside of rotting my brain with social media

Taylor Swift is not the only female artist in the world and you don't hate all women if you don't listen to her

>>33487736
What do you do?

>>33487743
Nothing

>>33483905 (OP)
I feel like I’ve been a goddamn husk for years now, and I’m too fucking scared to tell people the real reason why I’m single, and it is from being groomed at 15 years old (I’m 22 now.)

Started with her messaging me on instagram, and since I didn’t have friends I entertained her. She asked if I had a problem with the age gap if her being in her twenties, and me being stupid as fuck, I agreed. She and I got a lot closer and she sent me messages about us trusting each other is crucial. Told a teacher about it offhand. (I forget the context of the conversation.) she told me to block her and I went my merry way for the next 2 years. Back then I knew how to talk to girls, but after stumbling across the messages over a year later it all fucking hit.

Ever since, I’ve completely stopped trying to talk to women. Not like I HATED them, just stopped trying to be sexually active, ignoring girls that have shown interest, feigning being oblivious, coming off as prudish or having social anxiety. The reality is I feel fucking sick.

I want to move past this, but I don’t know how or WHERE TO EVEN BEGIN. I guess the reason why I don’t flirt or “shoot my shot” is because deep down I don’t want to spread the ‘rot’ I feel. It feels like the part of me that knew how to flirt, talk to women in a sexual/romantic context has been chipped away from me. I want to move on, and live in spite of it. I have no fucking clue how to start.

>was she hot though?
Absolutely not, that’s the worst part. I don’t even think she was in her twenties. Imagine Megan fox except she smoked meth-laced cigarettes after a parrot tried nesting in her hair.

>>33487819
Hey anon, I promise you aren’t disgusting, tainted, or unlovable. I’m so sorry that happened to you.

>>33487841
Thank you, anon. I appreciate it.

>>33487846
I wish I had more advice but there are many others who have gone through similar things, many of them women. You are worthy of love. Hug.

>>33483905 (OP)
Asked for a second opinion and I think I really may have been groomed at 12-13. I feel ruined.

>>33487865
You're not alone Anon, it took me 12 years just to tell my parents what happened to me.

I am good looking enough to match with hot chicks online dating. But not good looking enough for them to respond to any of my messages.

>>33483905 (OP)
I'm working in a lawfirm, and is currently juggling a side gig as an independent attourney helping clients with litigation matters, the only reason I was able to get my side gig is because I leverage of my dad who holds a really good position in the police force, so it cuts down 70% of unecesseary work.

My lawfirm would never allow me to get this sidejob, and my dad thinks all my side clients are my office clients, he doesn't aprove any side gigs.

But I'm making good fucking money, even though I'm constantly sleep deprived and have a hard time managing time. I wonder how long till my dad and/or office find out and it all come crumbling down.

>>33487982
Why did you start the side gig in the first place? Are you making more than your regular day job?

I’d start making a plan b incase shit hits the fan, disappear if you have to.

>>33485257
You know what to do.

>>33484325
This is how therapy works for some people. I like my therapist because we have a good rapport, making me feel more comfortable to talk about heavier stuff.

Honestly? Im such a NEET im just happy to leave my house even for an hour.

I'm sad that you could never do anything. NOW you can. NOW is your chance as you can DO everything. I will support you.

>>33487405
No.Apology not accepted.

>>33483905 (OP)
I want to never have been alive. I wish I never existed. I resent every breath I took. I want to fast forward to that beautiful point in my time, when I finally do it.

>>33487870
Thank you. I get how it feels having to talk long after it happened.

Question... do prettier people have emptier personalities compared to "ugly"/average people?

>>33488203
No

im so excited for this budget hell to be over, i miss consumerslop

I had to move back in with my parents, my degree has been delayed for reasons out of my control, and I put all the weight I had managed to lose while living alone back on.