>jaw mog bf

I'm in a truly sad state to a point I find it comforting when people at least insult me. Anytime I share any feelings, thoughts or anything remotely vulnerable most of the time I get apathy. No comments, no questions, no discussions, ignored entirely. So whenever someone takes at least 5 seconds to call me an idiot at least I know someone listened to what I had to say. Its also how I know hate isn't the worst thing in this universe but apathy. Hate can be mended, it can be turned, it can be fought against. It can even motivate you to do good; its not the healthiest motivator but at least its there. But apathy is nothing. You can't approach apathy same as you can do against hate. You can't win against it. Apathy never waivers, it never diminishes until you succumb to it; a never ending war of attrition with one clear winner.
This is so pathetic and I can't fucking help it...