Somewhere in there. Somewhere deep in Basil's feverish, delirious mind, he believes what he did that night saved Sunny. He protected Sunny. A sentiment that was only let out in the midst of a mental breakdown four years in the making, but still there in some capacity. I believe the whole "Something behind you" idea only came to Basil after they looked back that night and saw Mari's eyes open, or maybe in conjunction with him ruining the album. A rationalization and justification for Sunny's actions. Stranger says that he did what he did to save what was left, Sunny more specifically. Basil doesn't seem like he's running from his own actions, but Sunny's. Always to protect Sunny. Some part of Basil accepts what he did and thinks it was a 'good' thing that saved Sunny, even if that action is tearing him up inside.
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I think Basil just really clicked with Sunny. His background seems like it has more overlap with Aubrey, but Sunny became his best friend. Sunny was just exactly the person Basil needed. Someone he could open up to who wouldn't judge him. Someone who was receptive to his interests and kept them in mind. Sunny had a very mild personality that didn't clash with his. They seemed to share some interests, or Sunny was receptive to his. Basil always visited considering Sunny names a chair in the kitchen as Basil's. The friend group also kind of had built-in pairs; Hero was obviously with Mari, Kel and Aubrey would bicker and playfight, leaving Sunny and Basil together often. So they seemed to interact a lot and meshed well, or at least Basil really meshed with Sunny. It seems like this, Basil's loneliness and abandonment issues, and some other things resulted in Sunny being very important to him. And idolizing him to the point of him seeming incapable of wrongdoing. Maybe Basil's gay. At the very least he was unhealthily attached, but in an ideal world the unhealthy part wouldn't have been very apparent.
I think.