>>81583222
i fucked myself hard back in highschool with this. got into a long term relationship with a girl, found out i couldnt have sex with her, but still wanted to be with her? i decided that was it, this was it. if i STILL wanted to be with her forever after finding out i was probably never going to get to doink her? holy shit i thought i had something going on there. i thought i had accidentally walked into the perfect relationship/marriage/life.
it didnt pan out, but it was really fucking awesome while it was working. a best buddy for a gf, sex wasnt even thought about or a thing. just somebody i shared my entire life with, shared all my closest emotions and thoughts. man. it was pretty great for a little while there.

even after it was all done, all the horrible things we inadvertedly did to eachother, she STILL...still checked in on me. she had her own kid, a stable marriage, working on literally buying a house, and when we caught up she insisted on getting me alone, so we could talk, and she tried to subtly ask me what i did after we split, if i had moved on, found a different girl. damn. i fucked that one up hard.