>>81569957
i thought the same thing, until i sat long enough in lone darkness long enough so that these things withered before my very eyes. my once favored food became bland, my once cherished bible became uninteresting. i am autistic, as perhaps are you, yet i have lost what made me feel alive; my hyper-fixations. i could obsess over any esoteric knowledge, for days on end. what changed? nothing, that's the problem. i found myself wandering on the rim of nothingness, begging for something, anything to get me away from it. but after long enough, i could do nothing but jump into the heart of the void. heed my warning: salvation lies in lies. do not seek the truth, hold tight onto ignorance, it is the only way to joy. existence is a lie, and to exist is to be a liar.