The nature of the inherent need that humans feel for relationships is rooted in the same mechanism that affects a substance abuser. It is withdrawal. When I realized this, I avoided many situations in which I would have made a complete fool of myself, as you are doing now. However, some situations we feel are wrong or have an expiration date years before we can rationalize the reasons why they would happen. I believe that you have experienced this feeling in your life. You already knew that something was going to happen...