>>713964141
I work in the shittiest part of California where it’s impossible to get an entry level job and all the job that requires an education of any kind is desperately hiring. I really wish I had taken school more seriously or had someone to guide me in my youth to not quit. I know I can do it know still in my 30s but I’m in an endless cycle of destroying my life and restarting almost endlessly. I get a job, eventually fallout with someone and over quit due to the injustice of something or get pushed out and eventually fired. I literally can’t stop myself from calling out shit that’s not fair. Same with all my gfs, the moment they do something that I deem as a betrayal or some dishonesty I punish them until I destroy the relationship. It’s a shitty cycle I can’t seem to stop. I’m pretty close to giving up. Some days I’m insanely motivated to better myself then other days I just pick apart all of my failures and don’t want to get out of bed or brush my teeth or do anything.