I'm on the same boat. My father was a workaholic and was always emotionally distant, he also beat me up sometimes. Lots of stuff happened in my life, and I blamed him for it, to the point of despising him. When my parents divorced I obviously went with my mother.
It has been more than a decade now and I've been trying to get closer to him. He's not a great guy by any means, but I really do feel like he cares about me. Speaking with him, even if it's just once a week, has made me feel better. I suggest you try to do the same, even if it takes years to mend your relationship like in my case.