May 8 2002
Since I'm doing a job that involves lots of sitting down, I get this obsessive idea that I have to exercise, but if I were to exercise it would feel painful, and I get this obsessive idea that maybe my heart will stop... If my heart is going to stop, it will, so I get this obsessive idea that before that happens, I have to get rid of all my embarrassing stuff... But if I would get rid of all my embarassing stuff, I get this obsessive idea that the other people living in my building will see me when I'm throwing it away... And then meeting people would be so incredibly scary.