>>39958392
Survivor's guilt is a bitch. Sometimes it can be freeing (albeit depressing) to think that lightning does not strikes neither the most or least deserving, just the one that happened to be closest. But I'm just idly prattling. I need to tell myself how it is not my fault as often as I need to tell others. There is comfort in that too I think.
>I had my first therapy session yesterday
If you feel like talking about it, remember, we're always happy to listen.
Are there specific dates you got in mind for pride?
>It's pretty scary.
>i'm just going to try to do what I can this year, do what I can tonight
And that is already amazing, trust me. It does not feel like it but it is above baseline.
>>39956647
>>39956661
You have a bit of a flight response to failure? Hm. I have a silly idea with no guarantee that it will work.
But what if you had a side project where 90% of the experience is failure, and you let yourself be rewarded for each one?
I think exposing yourself to something that numbs you of the pain of failing would be a godsent, and external validation on top might help too.
Do you generally find yourself in the habit acting on impulse?
>I will likely go either next Tuesday or Wednesday.
Deal! Please poke me on Wed latest, no matter whether you ended up going, ok?
>I'd have a hard time telling them to mind their own business.
Would it help to have a lie you can practice in advance?
>I think I'd prefer to do it 'properly' from the start.
On the one hand, absolutely fair. On the other, especially with [current events], I honestly take more the artist approach of "make it exist first, make it good later".
But I won't press, it is just that if you find yourself experiencing distress it is better to alleviate quickly.
As for planning, let's assume plume for now.
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