>>81824150
>BPD
You know what, I probably have this. The only time I recall having abandonment issues is when I was a little kid with my dad, but I've got pretty much all the other symptoms. I've been an incel pretty much all my life due to being obese, broke, and, aside from going to the gym (except from March 2020 to January 2024), locked in my room, so I haven't gotten a chance to have a girlfriend. I'm a little excited now, but the issue is that this could be something I identify with like OCD, and I don't want to be some cringe leftist who identifies with stupid shit that aren't achievements. I retardedly look forward to getting diagnosed with this now. It would be nice to tell my dad I have such a diagnosis so he'll be more understanding. I was feeling super anxious earlier, and now I'm excited, but I'm also cringing at myself. I always have some intense emotions that keep me from falling asleep, so I take four different sleep medications: quetiapine, suvorexant, melatonin, and zolpidem (ambien). I'm still pretty sure OCD is the main culprit, but I take these medications to relax overall.