taking my nap. i love you babe. and i'm trying my best for us. i know you don't like hearing the stuff i have to say, but how else could we work? i've changed a lot for you, quit the weed, at the gym, way lower porn consumption, just to name a few. ya a lot of it benefited me but you were the motivation and none of it was easy. you might not see the changes i'm asking the same way, as benefits to you, but they are, if you're really honest with yourself. they might be harder asks as well, but you owe me a good turn or two. my goal is not to punish you are embarass you or anything like that, it's to make you better, not just for me to love but to be a mother someday, that's the ultimate goal if i'm being honest, that's what relationships are for, not just cuddling and sex and play, want the whole thing with you, which is why you shouldn't take what i'm doing lightly, that's the biggest goal in life, the most important thing there is, and i'm after it with everything i've got. know you're the prize and i'm the seeker though, i do have that straight. but this is what i need to reach my goal, we need to fit together smoothly and right now we don't, much as we might see in one another. i'm trying to be cooler and saner, it's hard, i'm crazy for you. help me out and keep on your journey, keep me in your heart. we will make it to where we need to be someday if you have conviction, the road is easier to walk than you think, we can travel fast too. love you.