>>40285029
>I used trauma language but made all the signals of being fine.
No, quite the opposite. The signals you were giving off were more like a person who thinks they’re more okay than they actually are.
>You wanted to make sure I’m not larping
Even if you were I wouldn’t gain anything from putting you through tests. Even if it was all fake the posts I wrote could still reach a lurker who struggled with something similar. But truthfully I didn’t think so far because it didn’t come across as larp to my eyes.
>And you wanted me to remember.
Yes, this.
I wanted to see if we could help you trust your own perception a bit more.
I wanted to see if we could help you further your understanding of what happened and finding the words to express yourself.
With gaslighting in particular it can be difficult to accept that you are allowed to call it what it is (abuse, neglect), in large part because the gaslighting impedes on our ability to identify it. As you said, it sometimes helps to hear it from others. I hope my approach wasn’t too aggressive and I am sorry if it continues to be.
>No, goddess, no. And I want that to be very clear.
My apologies then anon, I wasn’t quite sure how to interpret the gaps in the sentences. Thank you for clarifying that for me
>She took my PC
While I am glad the gaps didn’t indicate what I first thought, punishing you for something that you had no part in is a direct abuse of the power she held over you as a child. It’s like kicking your dog to deal with the sadness of losing money on the stock market. I can’t think of any scenario where you deserved that at all …
>>40285091
I see. Do you have any precursory signs of being on the brink of a breakdown that you’re aware of?
(For me, for instance, I know I’m at risk when I feel a need to over exercise and begin to internally glorify the idea of daydrinking.)