>>40732822
Sorry for the wall of text, but honestly, you have to find it yourself. it's not something that will make you better or worse, just a self proving order of the universe that answers a lot of questions. Arguably, it's the adult equivalent of finding out where babies come from and learning about mortality. It fucked me up for a good couple years but ive come to terms with it and still read books surrounding the topic for the fun of it from time to time.

I felt a mix of comic horror and wonder for the longest time, like i was a complete miniscule inpercievable cog in a giant machine, but a cog nonetheless. Now, it mostly sits in the back of my mind, and every so often, it'll pop up like the most intense mushroom-flashback in existence.

That chart, and things like it, are a way to put human concepts, groups, labels, and titles into a box. It won't get you where you think you want to go. And really has nothing to do with it. People feel more comfortable when they think humanity is under control by someone or something. Even if it's by an entity / group / person they dont agree with.