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One time while on a plat 3 dose of DXM, I had come to realize that the reason why the creator god or the universe or whatnot had fragmented it's own divine and inexorable wholeness was so that it could experience love. That to be something and to see something that isn't you and still deeply feel for it is something beyond even divinity. If I were to dissolve everything into me and become everything that is and isn't, would I still be able to love? Do I even know how to love as I currently am given that I often fantasize putting myself at the helm of reality and creation? I wonder if that's something I'll miss.