> lose contact with fp for weeks
> start talking again
> lost again after just a day, but this time it's final

i can't stop crying
please give me a good reason not to give up on human interaction as a whole or just kill myself
i don't know what to do with myself anymore
i feel so sick and empty, and it'll be a recurring feeling for the rest of my life because my brain can't fathom the concept of not being unhealthily attached to someone