I want to start hrt, but I'm scared to do it without a doctor looking out for me, I'm scared that I might mess up something

>>40319137
Stay with your bf and let me date the cute she/her femboy... when will I find love myself :'3

What's wrong with me? Why do people not like me? When will I find my love? Why is it so hard for me to ever pass and be seen as a girl?