I don't think I'm a good person, ultimately. I've committed no crimes, I do my job, I'm friendly at work and everyone knows me there, but on a fundamental level I'm just not a good person. Because what is it that actually makes someone a good person? I'd say it's duty, probably. Self-sacrifice. Doing what must be done no matter the pain. And I'm a congenital coward who lacks those traits, an amorphous blob of clashing values. Being punctual for work, getting good numbers, causing no problems, none of that amounts to much. If anything it's selfish and for my own gain. I'm not strong enough to be a good person. I was never going to be strong enough to be a good person. And that's all I wanted to say.