Thread 33404517

>>33404517 (OP)
I have a small penis and just don't see the point in trying to date

>>33404517 (OP)
Ive learned the only emotions i can make myself feel are spite envy hatred and sexual frustration for some reason because of this i take my anger out on others not those around me but things like people online anyway kys

>>33404517 (OP)
I have felt compley broken and unwanted on the inside since highschool and my parents remind me weekly of problems outside of my control.
I have no idea if I can see love as being real in my life or mutual dependance.
I still wish I could remove my entire past and I wish I was completely forgotten by anyone who knew I existed when I was between the ages of 4-20.

>>33404537
Women like men because of personality and character traits - not the size of their weenie.

>>33404558
Women are unironic chakra vampires that need human semen (soul energy) to survive, diagram of uterus is the image of apostelic baphomet, look it up, complete with horns and all.

When you have sex, part of your soul is being lost on ejaculation, think about it, you cum inside and the cum never comes out, soon enough it is absorbed by the vagina (baphomet devouring soul fragments), but how? It has no mouths, yet it happens. Semen is the vagina's (apostolic baphomet) preffered goyslop, without semen women (demonkind) dies of starvation, which is why women seek sex and always want you to cum inside for an 'unexplainable reason', part of the reason this happens is based on the fact there is no superior entity for them to rely on once their interior energy is depleted, think of it like a really big tank with only one mouth on it that slowly leaks out. They replenish their inner energy by absorbing it from men, because ultimately they have no souls which they can rely on to produce this energy themselves. If they do not get enough energy, they bleed. just look it up, pregnant women (women that have been cummed in and had their energy needs temporarily sated) do not have periods at all, nothing, blood simply does not come out. Yet a woman that does not have this 'suddenly' bleeds and feels ill for several days in a row with pain and weakness and bleeding. Normal?

>>33404558
They like them for looks, height, money and penis size, not exactly in order, you need to be above average in at least 2/4 of these

You can do much
If a woman is with you for years and you support her and love her like crazy but she decides to leave you because she's bored or because some other nigga makes more money or for whatever reason then you just have to accept that she was only in it for what you could provide
It's just best to detach and move on

>>33404573
>>33404576

Keep dreaming. I know lots of self supporting women who would rather have a good, kind and supportive man with a little package rather than an arrogant, tall douche with a huge shlong. Height has nothing to do with it, either - there are short men with major junk who happen to be super handsome.
If you don't think a womans first and foremost preference is a man's character, attitude and overall personality... you must be blind, dumb or both.

Despite my best efforts I have officially entered Norwood 3V territory and I'm not even 24. I stopped taking/enjoying showers because seeing clumps of hair coating the floor was too much. I no longer enjoy a lot of the things I used to anymore, like being in my PJs. The worst part is that my facial hair grows, and grows fast; it's itchy and annoying, and sometimes I'll scratch at it until I see blood start to gather at the tips of my claws--which are now so long they stopped being finger nails. Between my lack of eyebrows, sunken eyes, yellow unwashed teeth and tongue, dirty and covered in every bodily fluid imaginable clothes, and claws I look like some monster. I only vaguely know why I care about my hair so much; for most of my life my parents kept it short and COVID was the first time I had full control of my hair and let it grow unchecked. Unfortunately it was last time because I noticed I was balding at 21/22.

>>33404581
They wont fuck you bro

>>33404517 (OP)
Sorry I keep upsetting you with everything I say. I wish I could just hug you but I'm not there. I get no feedback sometimes so I have no idea how my words affect you. I wish I could comfort you better. But I keep failing. I'm gonna drink now

I made a new second friend group over the past year and now I'm thinking of ghosting them all because I was an idiot and fell in love with someone in it. She's been lovey dovey with me and it's the first time since my last relationship imploded years ago that I've actually felt like someone cared about me. Then I found out all those times we had plans or were hanging out and she had to leave early she was going off to see this other guy from the group and is basically all over him whenever I'm not around, even though the dude's got a gf already. I think she knows something's up because I've been quiet the past few days. If I tell her to fuck off I know it's going to be awkward in the group because they were both there before me and it's been entirely chill, so people will probably blame me for bringing drama into shit. I fucking hate people so much. Thanks for reading my blog.

Living in new mexico is making me increasingly and extremely racist against mexicans

Honestly I wish they were all dead
They are fucking barbarian subhuman savages not humans
They are the same exact bloodthirsty monsters that the Spanish found here centuries ago
Absolutely nothing has changed

It's never gonna be how it was and I need to accept that. But it's hard because I haven't been okay in a really long time and this really specific dynamic of multiple things coming together finally catered to my narrow fucked up needs in the exact right way to let me start thriving. But then it all fell apart and now I'm kinda freaking out. Having tasted what normality and being wanted felt like for before. And the only path I knew of to get there no longer exists. But I did it once in an unexpected way so I should be able to do it again. I just have to let go of the one known pattern I have for it so far. Doesn't mean it's the only one

I just shaved my face. It's the only part of my body--aside from my ears because not being to hear because of clogged ears really bothers me--that I bother to up-keep. I haven't washed clothes in over a year, haven't brushed my teeth in over a year, haven't trimmed my nails in half-a-year, and haven't showered in two months. I really hate facial hair and always shred my face shaving but the aftermath never fails to feel good. Since laser hair removal is a scam and doesn't permanently get rid of it I've been thinking of HRT; wouldn't have to shave and it might stop or even reverse my hairloss.

Mum just had an hour long breakdown because of the ending of the Superman movie, in utter tears, because she's lost all hope that things can work out alright if you try your best and believe like the film says. It's hard to try and help her when she looks forward to dying to escape a life she hates, and internalises hours of doomer political news daily despite my protests. I tried to remind her of what she's achieved, that Superman keeps rolling with the punches, but I had no answers that would resonate with her. How can I help, really? How do I become a man that can cast a spell that makes it all better? I have my own despair I've wallowed in for a decade and gotten no closer to escaping it, I just need to cast it off outright. Just forget the depression lmao. Working hard and paying all her bills isn't enough, as much as I try to convince myself it is. Still I take, take, and take. Welcome to the rest of my life, I suppose.

>>33404517 (OP)
For the circumstances that have defined my life, I am really great and good.
And I deserve-- the universe owes me-- a good as great as the evil I've lived through until now. I deserve justice, which I must have soon in this exact life, with or without the Gods.

the biggest thing i really bring to the table in a relationship is my dick and skill at sex but i refuse to do that before marriage now

i don't really have money, concrete career plans, that great of a personality.. my looks are decent but i'm not tall

Don't lead by emotions
Just lead

Woman I know just cancelled holiday after we already booked everything, I want to just call her a fucking retard and tear in to her in front of everyone

>>33405035
We must imagine Sisyphus is happy.

That feeling of her pulling away, leaving me on read, not wanting to hang out anymore. Dagger through the heart. And I can't help crashing out and pestering her to just be straight with me, which is only hastening the demise of this thing. I hate this. I hate it so much.

>>33405096
Sorry
I know how it feels

I've come to realize that on the one hand I could be correct about not really having anyone that truly cares about me, and on the other I might just be overthinking things. Either way I'm headed to ruin and I'm struggling to think of reasons why I should continue.

Came back from work abroad. I met someone there that was also assigned to work with me, kinda. Fell in love with her despite knowing very well that circumstances of life made it impossible. I did not want to work there and much less ‘meet’ someone. I was happy with my state of things before this encounter. Now I’m back home where I started and I feel like a total stranger, in my own home if you can believe that. What causes this and how do you snap out of it?

Hard work is all a bunch of retarded bullshit. I've worked hard on projects all my life. At best, I get an indifferent "Good Job!". At worst, I get a slap in the face. I just turned 30 and I just realized I've wasted my entire life on academia. I have no GF, and nothing good to my name. Life would've been objectively better and more rewarding if I had just skipped college, gotten a shitty part time job, and spent all my free time jerking off an playing video games. I was a retard to believe that I could make life better. I'm autistic, nothing gets better. Nothing ever gets better and I FACTUALLY, PROVABLY, OBJECTIVELY don't have to power to change that. All the bullies were right about me and I arrogantly believed otherwise. I feel like such an idiot. The only way out is the rope.

>>33405096
Going through this too.
Seeing our relationship of nine months slowly fizzle away over just a few weeks is pretty heart-wrenching. She hasn't responded to my last message in four days. I'm hoping she'll have the balls to send me a break-up message instead of just silently disappearing from my life.
Oh well. I'll find someone who loves me, eventually. You will too, anon.

Blonde bitches

I don't think I should go out anymore or work out. It seems like the universe or something keeps sending me people who want to fuck with me and I can't do anything to fight back other than physically which will just get me in to more trouble. I don't think getting fit and strong is going to do me any good because the arrogance of these people don't care if I can punch their lights out and are fine being weak, they still have power over me and can get someone else to take me out. I hate this world man, I just want to be left alone. I don't want to resort to violence, I don't know what to do.

Why are things still fucked up? Why do people try to make things worse instead?

God please. Fucking misery run me over with a semi, immure me in concrete anything .I cannot function like this. Chronic pain you stupid bitch. might use my pto til friday and just lay down for two straight days. I can’t think straight. and i GET that i should expect to have bad days but its fucking unreasonably hard to accept

>>33405096
It hurts but don't crash out
Keep your self respect
Let it die and find the next one

>>33405315
Too late, anon. The crashout has happened and now I have neither the girl nor my dignity.

It's been twenty three days since you vanished. I can't stop feeling horrible, I want us to take that trip we planned this summer. I want to do the thing we were planning this fall. I want to waste hours watching films with you like we used to... I miss you a lot.

>leave home
>be successful
>get new partner

has anyone gotten to the point where any advise really just doesn't help where you just in so much dispair that it all sounds like noise and your just wish you could just disappear?

Am I being exploited for free or do u have my money?

Dentist got my permanent crowns back from the lab and put them in this morning. They don't fit at all.
I'm goin on a trip so I won't be able to bite down for 2 months.
Every time I let a dentist do anything, I regret it enormously.
Man, what a profession of clowns. I wish we had metal instead of teeth. I hate teeth and dentists.

I know this sounds like incel rhetoric but I've been so beaten down by abuse and humiliation that I think any woman who would hypothetically date me would eventually resent me for being so vastly inferior to nfl players or something like that. I'm such a pathetic wreck that I'm like a different species or something and any love I acquire by some miracle will eventually fade.

>>33405580
Most advice is pure bullshit, specially on here and reddit.

>>33405580
Yeah man, that's just life in 2025. Welcome aboard.

>>33405580
if people knew what to do, the world wouldn't be getting worse like this every year.

I'm so gutted over this breakup that I actually pitched a strictly sexual arrangement in an attempt to salvage something.

I presented it like a trade agreement. "It would be mutually beneficial, and I wouldn't stay the night, and perhaps it would alleviate your anger management issues."

NO response. Left on read to wallow in my humiliation. Why the fuck did I think this would work? I am beyond embarrassed now, in addition to heartbroken. Just an all around awesome turn of events. Fuck me.

>>33404517 (OP)
I'm getting sick from thinking about how old stuff is. Please make it stop.

>>33406047
Ehh, because you're desperate enough to settle for even their crumbs. It's a painful place to be in, where you feel like you're now no longer worthy of a real relationship anymore but maybe the sex would be good enough for just that alone. You're on a road of diminishing self worth.

>>33406081
That's for sure. It's just getting worse too. I dunno how to recover my dignity.

>>33406086
I don't honestly know. There's an underlying knowing that you're worth more than that, but it's dismissed because of that desire to at least find the room to fix things maybe?

>>33406121
Yeah, I can't let go of the hope that things can be salvaged. I keep trying to scheme up ways to get her back. And in the process I can feel myself getting more delusional and weird.

I need to get paid so that I can attempt to mentally recover so that hopefully I can find a woman who isn’t a hoe before it’s too late. They will need to be ok with me never being capable of loving them due to the stupid shit that I have been subjected to and I doubt that most will care. I just don’t want to be lonely forever. I’m being exploited and I’m surprised that revenue isn’t being accumulated. If there is then I should have received what I have earned a long time ago.

I don’t see the point in marriage for myself anymore. Maybe I should just switch to the casual shit. There are plenty of hoes who will be interested. Maybe I should just accept hoes in my life. Marriage is for women who aren’t hoes. Women who aren’t hoes deserve someone who can actually love them. Shit is bleak.

>>33406199
Marriage can be pretty bleak too. Statistically, most marriages ARE bleak. Grass is always greener. Hoes will satisfy your dick until they're bored, and they leave you lonely. Marriage will satisfy your loneliness but you run the risk of devastating heartbreak in the future, and your sex life will assuredly wither.

There's not really a 'good' or 'bad' option. There's just what works for your lifestyle, and what doesn't.

I mostly just want to smoke good weed and eat good food and drive an e30. A base with heating and air conditioning would also be nice.

>>33406170
I never hit the point of scheming, I feel like if that's caught onto it would just make things worse and kill trust. I've been hopeful and concerned to a point where it makes me behave weirdly though.
Just try to keep yourself in check. Introspect. Figure out why you're doing things and try to catch yourself. It's not easy, I can sense the panic phase on you at this point. You're going to have to bury yourself into your friendships or hobbies for a bit.

>>33406261
I guess by scheming I meant things like what I just did - pitching a sexual arrangement with zero self-awareness. Nothing duplicitous.

But yeah, either way, I need to accept that she's not going to speak to me again and that this is done. I just wish I could make myself believe it. I guess that's where distraction come into play.

Lot of old and new hobbies I’d like to get into but they require money that I don’t have and can’t seem to obtain.

>>33406278
I wish I could suggest a way that would help ease the discomfort of it. It's not something that you want to talk to friends about, it would get easy to only be able to talk about that and drive them away. You'll have to push yourself to bring up other subjects to get out of your head. Hard to rely on someone else to more or less save you from your own self, but it is what it is

my grandmother lies in bed in discomfort, my mother has been yelling and insulting her for a month, just a few hours ago too
there is nothing I can do to make it stop any faster than what I already did
i don't know for how much longer I can stand still
posting here because none of my friends deserve to read this

i wish my ex friend's mental health was worse so he'd want me back in his life

>>33406367
BPDemon.

>>33406383
:/ what

>>33404517 (OP)
i want isreal nuked :/

>>33406415
I think everyone does. Makes you wonder, would anyone even retaliate?

I'm just sad. Everything sucks right now and I see no path to a better future. College is pissing me off and I haven't even started it yet. The job market in my area is completely fucked, there's nothing but fast food and retail for people without a college degree, even though I know I can do more than that and have. I hate my current job, I'd love nothing more than to just not show up tomorrow. But at least they like me there, I'm a hard worker and I always show up early.

I just need to keep plugging away at things. I really don't want to go to college this semester. If there were online classes I'd be okay with it but I'll have to drive to the other side of town for classes twice a week and get up early, and I know that's going to cause me to miss classes. Some people say you can get a tech job without a degree. I just need to keep practicing, and no matter how many times I get knocked down I need to get up again.

Just like two more months or so. Weird timing.

>>33405035
Watch Nick Fuentez clips on Youtube with her, she’s getting redpilled all alone

Just found out my extreme amounts of depression and anxiety were likely being caused by the medicine I need to take so my joints don't become paralyzed again. Took my last dose of it today and even knowing that it's doing this, I'm having a very hard time fighting back the awful thoughts flooding in. Thanks god.

I got MOOBS

>>33406493
post them

How oft I think of thee bares no telling,
Like Barabas, I durst not count it.
Give me a pearl to ope in one oyster:
Infinite riches in so small a room.

Fuck it I don't hate working at my current job and it has good benefits. But I am tired of working late and not getting out much to meet women or people.

I applied for this remote job with this company but had to do a shitty assessment. Hopefully they still interview me.

I wish I made better decisions earlier in life then attended college or work at that shitty grocery store with no benefits.

>>33406415
Isreal isnt a real country lrn2spell

>>33406465
Gare did you see the abortion pics earlier from cheswick lol I'm glad she killed your son.

Why the fuck do you need email addresses for references? I already gave you their phone numbers. Just ring the bastards, you autistic cunts.

>>33406605
I fucking hate when they ask for that information

I never used to receive messages like this. They would just interview and hire me instead but I feel like everyone knows who I am so they are trying to make me jump thru hoops that they don’t expect me to so that they can look like they have an alternative reason for rejecting me. It doesn’t matter if I reply, they’re not going to hire me. I’ve done enough interviews to know that I can’t get hired anywhere I would have easily been hired at back then.

>>33406465
Ches said you got her pregnant too. The 17 yr old left too. Why did the 17yr old leave for another man gare?

>>33406605
Did u post this because u knew what i was about to post?

>>33406613
Right? I don't have email addresses for any of my references. I've applied for hundreds of jobs and maybe twice they've needed to be done electronically on any real level. Why can't they just use the information I already provided?

>>33406646
Join the club, apparently.

>>33406566
I wouldn’t be surprised if Canada allowed for that

Anyway I don’t want to die yet but I feel like I might as well if I’m not really allowed to live either. I’m competent and qualified to work at every business that interviews me but they don’t and it’s probably because they know who I am now. I’m barely holding on to the will to live.

Too bad this isnt going to devolve into a ches nude thread I know theres new ones

>Let me tell you what women want and how to behave in society. Even though I've never had sex and I'm not allowed with 500 metres of a school.
Why are there so many cases of this on 4chan? Just shut up, you fat fucking virgins. Nobody values your opinions because you don't know what you're talking about.

>>33406654
Are you retarded Fuentes is a grifter. But then your from canada so of course your retarded and think hes not left wing. When the maple syrup hits this hard

>>33406679
Fuentez is wholesome

>>33406566
Extremely based now all she needs to do is give up that kid she had with him. And not be a single mom. Then she would be datable. Knowing her she's probably going to get rid of his child too. And find someone else to have a child with. Eps. If she's able to have kids that old

I'm so sick of these fucking idiots. Yeah you installed fridges in your rooms. But do you contribute money for the BIG electric bill??
NO you fucking don't.
It's sick
I'm bout to blow up at these freeloaders

>>33406401
What if he does want you.

>>33406757
Yeah I thought that was what she was going to do since gare said no child support but supports his other kid I'm guessing she will just give it over to cps. Gare has been a deadbeat the entire time. She should of fucked sunxix at least then he would of supported her and if they had kids together

>>33406757
Dating is kind of gay. I find it extremely faggy after having pairbonded with women a few times. I’d rather be at home masturbating

>>33406772
Damn. I wonder what the new arc will be for cheswick she is so fucked up though she might just leave permanently

>>33406774
You actually lied to her and told her the kid wasnt yours which I've seen her kid and it does look like you. You deserved to lose your son to abortion.

>>33406774
What's the age and look of the new girl Gare

>>33406768
certainly not
fucker called me his best friend then cut me off like nothing

>>33406789
My eldest doesn’t look anything like me but that’s because she’s predominantly her mother

>>33406791
20
Brunette clussy
She’s too good for me

>>33406806
Ches said your with her cause your in and out of work. Your what a hobo still looking to fuck over women.

>>33406806
Wow so you really are a pedophile

>>33406821
I said 20 not 12

I understand now
I need to work towards the life that I want
I can't stay in one place and remain in limbo just hoping things will work out

>>33406828
Your 32 with women straight out of high school your looking for kids just admit it. I think your turned on by cheswicks kid too

>>33406842
Didnt he start fucking that other girl at 16 the one he had a ugly baby with that he posts all the time??

I don't even think he told thos new girl about the two kids he already has.

>Lol imagine she has cops show up for failure to pay child support and she answers poor Gare I feel for you

>>33406839
Limbo serves its purpose, but you have to learn to take advantage of the time it gives you. There's only a limited period where you can sit in stasis before the foundations begin to crumble and immediate action is needed.

Chill out anons all my bms are 18+

Gare they arent 17 in the us. Is underage.
20 in some states is still underage.

>>33406871
Name one state where 20 is the age of consent

This is a nice looking kid I'll wait gare until shes 17 dont worry

It's just one of those days...
Weeks...
Months...
Years...

>>33406890
That's cute that was the best one from earlier before she was banned she posted

Turned 31 today feelin ok.
Life coming together. Sober for a few months now. Relationship ended on mutual terms recently but I’m fine about it.
Everything will be alright.

>>33406947
happy birthday anon

>>33406926
Yeah shes a retard for even coming back here enjoy the 30 days baby killer

>>33406772
I’m not deadbeat

>>33406986
You've even said on here you won't support your daughter with cheswick so yeah you are

>>33405819
Mann me and my bf both just went to the dentist to get a cavity filler, no pain.... now both been in pain for months. Wtf.

Why should I keep trying to talk myself out of suicide? I'm so tired of misery following me around.

>>33407003
He cant even which works out for her with custody and child support. Since he choked her out almost allegedly

>>33407039
Probably because you're being irrational and are trapping yourself in a perpetual cycle of tardthink instead of trying to look at solutions that you can work with that provide at least some kind of comforts and happiness.

>>33407051
I am living an extremely comfortable life but the constant sense of shame and being terminally online ruins whatever joy I can get out of it.

Yikes no wonder he says it's not his baby it might as well not be.he will never see it once they hit family court same thing happened to a cousin of mine never saw his son till 18.

>>33407054
So what can you do to absolve yourself of shame?

>get the sense that this other person is emotionally insecure
>befriend them with the intention of offering kindred support
>aren’t I really just enjoying the “superior” role of being their caretaker, allowing me to always remain emotionally distant
>i parentify my relationships and never allow myself the freedom of honest, balanced vulnerability

bro all I want is a guy to ask me out. i’m going nuts out here and repeating patterns

>>33407077
Probably not live in this country.

Also dealing with my perversions.

But then again. He was a deadbeat and didn't support or go to supervised visits with him.

>>33407090
So what's a more realistic way to deal with the shame, because I know that a part of you understands how much you're exaggerating your situation?

You can't love me the way I want you to and I can't love you the way you want me to, so what's the point?

>>33407043
The worst part is that I got charges for choking out cheswick without the catharsis of actually doing it

>>33407108
Find ways to work around it. If you love eachother, but express it in ways that aren't ideal for one another, you find a way to either both compromise on how you express it, learn to both accept the way that each of you loves the other, or find a new way to love one another. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. And you can have times of slump where one of you just isn't capable. You're human.

>>33407101
I dunno...volunteer my time?

Seriously, though, I feel like nothing I do makes me feel proud anymore because I'm still living somewhere that is looked upon by other nations as being full of retards who have zero understanding of liberty. I feel like I have no claim to divorcing myself from that mentality.

>>33407132
Just involve yourself in volunteer groups and don't buy into the sins of our X frame of mind.

Gare didn't you run over pepole too? With the other girl

A deadbeat got his unborn son murdered and says his daughter isn't his then says he didn't just abandoned the 17 yr old for a better girl with a job lmk when you've decided to support any kids you have Gare

Different day same tripfag story

Watch him abandon this new one for a stripper or something even more fucked up then his arcs on gioyc are.

>>33407200
Answer your phone dipshit this is retarded

>>33407210
Are you going to give me your number Gare? I don't think I'm gay

>>33407108
Nobody wants to love ur undecideds ass

>>33407221
How can someone be that undecided is this a crush??

Your trash. Wtf r u doing trying to fit in with non trash?? Go away

does gare think anyone in here is cheswick she was banned earlier

Trash
U
Are
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how the fuck do i find a job that isn't just a massive
>just do the grind bro go up the ladder
meme

Hi I’m a lesbian and I need to get kidnapped and tortured by an older woman that’s all desu

Why’s it add desu ad the end. I typed “desu”

>>33407221
You don't want to love my "undecideds" ass, that's the problem.

>>33407267
It's called a word filter.

>>33407267
Are you new here? Type s.o.y next with out the periods Tommy

>>33407284
I use "soi".

>>33404517 (OP)
Why the fuck did a Fap three times a row to porn again today

My stupid fucking deadbeat alcoholic roommates depress me. They remind me of me from the past, but I’m not like them now.
I need to move on. Not trying to pack away all my stuff and go through an arduous move anytime in the immediate future so here I stay. Im only home for 1-2 hours each day so I can get away with not seeing them most of the time, but it’s still sad to see them waste their fucking lives and be miserable.

>>33404565
Its epic to know that the fact that men cox other men into playing these games is causing more and more men to get less sex and cause more suicide because talking shit like a bitch and looking like a bitch cuz thats all you do is obviously helping.

>>33404565
I dont think this is real. Demons dont exist. And women bleed because it's how there made.

>>33404517 (OP)
Onions ?

>>33404565
Makes sense

>>33407458
Do you believe in the supernatural gare? Isnt that all fake and gay

>>33404565
A sweet an /x/ crossover post

How you going to look back on thousands of years of torture, abuse, and the miscarriage of justice. As well as decades of attacking people for sexual perversion, while being guilty of much worse, themselves. Only to then call those organisations innocent. What a truly perverse sense of moral authority you pretend to have.

>>33407466
That whole board is fake. Imagine being a fucking retard like cheswick and believing in that shit. Who the fuck would stay with a tarot reader to bad she cant just kill herself

>>33407463
The bible is real and contains supernatural stuff and telepathy is too

>>33407463
Even saying telepathy is real is illegal so that’s how you know

Ban me too faggot mods

Ban me fucking dipshits

You are a BITCH and that's all you will ever Be. FOREVER

>>33407272
Correct. 100% CORRECT!@
SO FUCKKNG DECIDE STUIPID FUK

>>BITCH
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Look I’m dodging 21 bans
Mods = dogs

>>33407508
Tldr

I wish I didn't eat those. This was とても impulsive.

Your ass hairs are caught in a twist stupid bitch

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>>33407497
You know it's you, so why are you trying to force me to acknowledge it so sternly?

>>33407489
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>>33407489

The holocaust never happened

Jews did 9/11

God I hate American women

Sand Hook was fake You Lost The Game TND TKD 6 million niggers niggers FREE EPSTEIN

The truth is I love brooding more than I love being happy.

I’m selling FREE EPTEIN shirts, DM me
Also I am a moderator

>>33407587
Many such cases.

You could work on that instead of being an enormous faggo

I do t think I’m ever really going to want hoes in my life. The thought of it sounds too gross now. I don’t want to have sex with any hoes. Just a hoe to smoke some weed with when I’m lonely. But what if she sucked a penis right before visiting? Then the dick lips will be touching what my lips touch right after and that’s gross too.

I wish I found someone to be sweet to and never fucked up

I’m a bum and things went bad

My attitude went mean today and that’s how it’s going to stay

Dreams died today and I don’t care anymore

>>33407623
Iktf

I think it’s cool to let people move on from people while letting them keep them in a good place in their heart.

"anon, it sounds like you don't want to be in a relationship"

it's not that I don't want to be in a relationship; it's the fact that the women i choose to chase after or be attracted to 9/10 times tend to be awful people and it's something I need to stop being stupid about and address/fix this. My procrastination and laziness is really holding me back.

>>33407700
What makes them awful?

In order to fit my ego, you would need high ceilings
But it sucks that you don't care about my feelings

>>33407705
they all have the same kind of personality

>narcissistic
>some form of bpd or bd
>anxious/avoidant attachment style
>broken in some kind of way
>sort of a pick me too
>blames trauma to justify her actions

the last one was someone who uttered those words to me to. and she had those traits. minus three women who i've had feelings for, i've dealt with that most of my time dabbling in the dating or romance scene.

but this falls back in my stupid savior complex too. i need to remind myself constantly that i can't help everyone or help anyone who doesn't want to be helped. and it drives me nuts that i attract shit like this and knowing why mostly women like this come flocking to me like bees coming to a garden of flowers. it's my energy, the fact that they find my attention and validation intoxicating, and that i'm easy to talk to.

all i've done is really set stronger boundaries now, but there's more that needs to be done in my eyes. i can't figure out what though

>>33407729
Have any of them made an effort to self improve or try to fix themselves?

>>33407739
nah. it's always a cycle with them when it came to me being around them
>address their problem
>they get upset
>realize they only wanted validation instead of accountability and advice
>the last one tried to do it, but would fall back in her problems (which is a normal process when it comes to trying to grow as a person)
>realized she could just keep using this as an excuse to make 0 progress and it became exhausting to hear the same thing over again
>after cutting her off, she mentioned that us splitting apart hurts her because im the only person she considers a friend, especially since we're both on different sides of the same coin, only that i dont let my trauma justify my actions like she does
>the last few wouldn't accept where they messed up on and dismissed or ostracized me out of the group

>>33407747
Did anything serious happen while she was working on things? That can halt and regress progress temporarily

>>33407755
nah. she just "living". her words too.

to elaborate, she was just doing whatever she wanted despite it being at the expense of others' feelings and time. she had left 2 long relationships and gotten in a situationship before she started talking to me and i tried to sit her down after she asked for help.

the problem when it cameto her was that she didn't work on herself. she's scared of being alone. she's never once in her life legitimately single or by herself and learn to be independent/self reflect. never stopped to process her previous break ups. just kept going thinking if she just found the next high, she can avoid sitting in her feelings. and this was something i addressed to her and she'd ignore. which gave me the answer i needed about who she was.

>>33407771
to add, the 2 long relationships ended with her bouncing in a friend group. her 1st ex and then his homeboy. then left her 2nd ex for situationship guy who turned her down after she did. all this in a span of 5-6 years with no pause. she's a serial cheater as well.

>>33407771
Being independent is separate from self reflection. Both are uncomfortable, or can be. Being unable to self reflect is a problem, especially if she's not willing to fix it. Independence means different things to different people, so that needs more context on your end as to what you mean.
What was she doing at others' expense?

>>33407782
Oh. Yeah, serial cheating is a no go flag. That's a shame, but she can learn from some other method. Not worth wasting your time on.

>>33407788
>so that needs more context on your end
she couldn't be by herself. that's the jist of it. she knows who she is, but needs someone to be there for her and with her. she has abandonment issues and a lot of people have left her (i now understand why). it's her not being able to be her own person and stand on her own two feet.
>what was she doing at other's expenses?
leading people on, using others to her gain (used me as a scapegoat to talk to her situationship when her current bf would call asking what she was doing). putting others in tough situations that could get them into a lot of trouble as well. changing the narrative of things and then conveniently bringing up a different telling of it or hidden information to get away with things. throwing people's business out and gossiping about another person's private life while avoiding confrontation after being caught and refusing to admit she did that and then shit talking said person behind their back.
>>33407795
yeah i know. i haven't spoken to her in almost a year. this is just going back to my main point about how i seem to be really good at fixing other people's problems or attempting to, but not focusing on fixing my romantic problems kek.

i just use this place as a place where can yell at the abyss and then close the tab. so im surprised someone wanted a whole conversation about this person

It's been difficult to move on after being pushed away in a romantic relationship. I wish that I could have given what was needed but the constant slow growth of distance being placed became too much to handle at the end. It's been a couple months

>>33406237
Nigga ur an unemployed neet living in ur parents rv spending 16 hours a week in these threads crying about how ur mommy and daddy are mean to you, how the fuck are u gonna make money to buy any of that shit when ur too much of a pussy to get a job and move out lmfao. Go touch some grass you fucking loser ass nigga, then maybe jump off the top of a really tall building after realizing how absolutely pathetic you are.

Ugh.

I'm back.

That's how I know shit is really hitting the fan. I don't even remember 4chan exists until I'm at rock bottom.

>>33407817
I like trying to look at the problems and variables that other people have and examine dynamics, outcomes etc. It's kind of dumb, but I like to look at those situations and use them as ways to try to examine my own behavior and see what things work for or against others, what I might be able to use myself
Thanks for the conversation, anon.

my personality isnt essential to my character, its more a part of my body

>>33404517 (OP)
Gonna have to put my cat down, this shit really sucks, im sorry your in so much pain.

>Women at work have no real interest in me romantically.
>Decide to talk to one of the newer nurses who's a walking disaster, but at least she's actually interested in me.
>We date for a few months, have a good time.
>Literally women in every single department are mad at me now, telling me how terrible of decision it was to date her.
>Things fall apart a while later because she gets back into drugs, I decide to cut our relationship because I want children and don't want them messed up due to a junkie mother.
>Now suddenly every eligible woman at work wants to talk me up, several of their friends are trying to push me to them.

What the fuck is with this place, no one cared who I was until I started dating someone else.

>>33408231
Are you retarded? Why are you trying to date at work

>>33408251
I don't plan to be there much longer, I'm finishing my masters in a year.

>>33407573
They did?

I kind of want to die.

Im tired of living, tired of dealing with the emotions of break up, tired of being a caretaker of my mother. Thats basically my entire life

16 years of my life ive been taking care of my mother.16 years of my mother abusing me in every way and the only thing my family can say is "you have to take care of your mother she needs you"

33 years of my life ive fallen in love 1 time each time with someone whos said they loved me. convinced me they would never leave. i felt comfortable, safe, secured. And then they left like i didnt mean anytthing

Im tired. my life feels like its nothing but being enslaved to help someone who doesnt even want to help themselves.

ive been working out. im in shape, i eat well, i dont have to actually go to a place to work. but my life is so limited

im not going to do anything, but if i were offered a chance to not be on this planet i would take it. there's nothing here for me except being a slave helping people or the world giving me someone who convinces me to let me guard down that they love me more than anything, that im the only person on this planet for them just to take it away in some of the worst possible way

Life is so scary. It's insane that you can go out of your way to be somewhat healthy and still get stuff like diabetes or cancer. Every little thing--be it going to pee or having blurry vision for a few seconds--causes me to think I have diabetes. Thinking about it a lot causes this weird feeling to rise up within; like the urge to vomit but it stays in your throat. I'm only happy in my delusions of fictional worlds or silly internet drama/politics.

I’m not just loud, I’m the boss. See how that works? Speak loud and clear. You get respect from giving it. If you’re going to bother to waste my time by speaking, do so with some gumption. Be heard! Have you ever noticed that panhandlers are always looking down and mumbling. A well spoken bum is a con artist. See the difference. Keep your mouth shut shut if you ain’t gonna use it.

Surprisingly woke up in calm acceptance today. But it's still an obsessive focus on it so I know it's not over yet. This cycles back to extreme anxious rumination
It's getting tiring but at least it's calm for now

If you talk to women trying to fuck them you're a sex pest.

I had to inform my mother that my marks are too low to make me eligible for the honours program at university.
She was about to start shitting on me for fucking up and lecturing me about how worthless my degree is without the honours program. But I told her I wasn’t going to talk about it and walked away.
I know that’s not a good way to react but what the hell else am I supposed to do? Listen helplessly as I’m reminded over and over again that I’m in trouble?

>>33409053
And it’s not like I don’t feel bad already or that I don’t know that this is very very bad. I do. I don’t need to be chewed out right now. Maybe I’ll let my mom do this tomorrow

>make any mistake
>feel shitty about it
>try to talk about to anyone
>they just call you retarded and laugh at you

Seriously why is this fucking world so god damn heartless? Why is it when you make a mistake or have any hardship people just mock and and act all smug instead of helping you or even just giving you a shred of sympathy?

>>33404558
then how come i have personally heard, without asking it
>haha he's so bad, i know i shouldn't have responded to that 2am text but he's got that third leg
and never
>ya i dated him longer than i would have but his personality was just so on point

I'm a dumbass coomer that fucks over my own life every time I let my coom brain take over

I never thought I would give up but I do think I think ive given up on women. Im just going my own way. Its over

>>33408231
It doesn't matter who we are, what matters is our date...

Hulk Hogan died. Thass crazy.

>>33409026
I hear you

He got a million put up...

Please, I don't want to get sick!
I feel kinda woozy and dizzy and had a day off today just in case. But I can't call in sick a second day without a confirmation from a doctor and I don't think it's bad enough for that.
And I really don't want to spend my weekend feeling shitty

Apparently internet porn gets banned in this country as of tomorrow. I haven't cranked one out for a couple of weeks now. I would go on a degenerate send off wanking spree but my libido is flatlining at the moment. My list of hobbies is frantically diminishing in the wake of an increasingly miserable life though. Should I just do it? I know I'm gonna be a virgin forever but I don't want my tackle to to shrivel up and fall off. Use it or lose it and all that. What a fucking meme this place has become over the last couple decades, good grief.

>>33409604
Just sleep early after you get home. Rub some vapo rub on your chest and your feet but use socks. Make yourself ginger tea with turmeric tea.

>>33409825
Yeah, I've been inhaling tea for the whole evening and will do the same tomorrow.
Luckily I can work from home and tomorrow is booked full of meetings in most of which I'm not that much of a contributer anyways. I'll make it through somehow

>>33404517 (OP)
I had a really cute coworker/classmate at uni. Our third shift together I yapped to her for an hour straight about a D&D game I was running, but we never spoke again. Then on the last day of school I had a booth to demo my final project and she came by to see it. She was with a guy though so I didn't shoot my shot. I feel like I should have.

I spent four hours in the university library today coasting on some manic high. Lost and alone in books. Studying, but intensely determined and hopeful for a better me beyond me.

I'm starting to believe that the whole concept of faithfulness is just a lie and humans are hardwired to just not give a shit. I feel like I'm the weird one for not having a drive to fuck everything that moves and just wanting to be with one person. I hate this world so much.

>>33410098
Don't women get bored of dudes who get no bitches and treat them right?

I wonder if I was groomed or not.

>>33410158
if u have to question it then the answer is no

>>33410204
If only life was as simple as you simpletons made it.

>>33410207
if only you were the victim you wish you were,
go look for pity someplace else, woman,

>>33410215
Hah, I’m not that anon. You sound spiritually unwell.

>>33410222
didnt ask, fag,

>>33410222
don't engage with these losers lol. assuming what I am and what my situation was based off a single reply is dumb of them

I'm having a really hard time holding it together right now
I just got rejected again after one date
We were talking for a few weeks every day and really getting along and she seemed so excited to see me. I was really putting a lot of effort into it
There were some hiccups on the date but she texted me after saying she doesn't want to even talk to me anymore

It keeps happening, it feels terrible that I must suck so bad people can't stand to even be around me
It's like every 2 months at this point and it feels bad every time, and I really try to figure out what I could do better each time

I was staying calm, just accepting it and moving on but I just got home and saw all the vines on the watermelon plant I'm growing are broken and that pushed me over the edge..so stupid

10 more lbs to go….

Today I learned that guys dont give a damn if I did my nails or not.
>big brother, bf and cousin all said
"You did your nails?"
When I asked about it. I dont think they have ever noticed that from anyone before.
I thought I made myself pretty. They dont even notice.
Thought about the last time a guy complemented my nail Art, and its never. Its always another girl who pays aytention to that.
Why did I even bother.

>>33410252
I'm speed running grief stages right now
I went from about to cry to now feeling furious how dare she fucking think I'm not good enough for her
She's the problem not me, all the effort I put in wasn't worth anything to her?

I don't think I'm a good person, ultimately. I've committed no crimes, I do my job, I'm friendly at work and everyone knows me there, but on a fundamental level I'm just not a good person. Because what is it that actually makes someone a good person? I'd say it's duty, probably. Self-sacrifice. Doing what must be done no matter the pain. And I'm a congenital coward who lacks those traits, an amorphous blob of clashing values. Being punctual for work, getting good numbers, causing no problems, none of that amounts to much. If anything it's selfish and for my own gain. I'm not strong enough to be a good person. I was never going to be strong enough to be a good person. And that's all I wanted to say.

She chose up, am I mad or nah?
Bruh, I ain't mad about it
These chicks be for everybody-

just want to get escorts again because I'm bored and it's something to do

Maybe I was the only one happy

I regret the way I was acting in that relationship
I wish I could say I was sorry but I'm sure you'd try to manipulate me one more time

>saw a woman irl today
>remember that they're ugly
Filters have harmed women more than they could ever know.

>>33410523
Happiness isn't in the other person, happiness is within yourself.
>>33410572
What do you mean manipulate you? How have they manipulated you before?

I want to kill myself :)

>>33410599
Me too anon. Wagmi

>>33410599
You don't even wanna talk. Not even once.

She reached out twice
Twice blocked
I wonder what she was trying to say
There was no point in it
I don't see the point in continuing the conversation

Not drinking is totally cool. Yep, I don’t even want to. Ha! It doesn’t make me feel good or raise my spirits or make me forget about my dull meaningless life. No siree Bob I couldn’t even imagine drinking right now. Yeah…

I GOT A JOB
I GOT HIRED
Worst fucking job market since 2008 and I raped it.

I think there's a point AI chatbots should stop learning to keep a good balance of accuracy and randomness. I can't use them anymore, I have to return to my old imagination...

>>33410713
nice job!
i just had interviews today, hopefully i'm hired too

My daily routine is
>Wake up at 1pm
>Eat
>Go back to sleep until around 6-7pm
>Play games
>Sleep again
I've been doing this for years now, i have no motivation to do anything, i feel like a complete failiure and every minute i spend awake is in constant agonizing anxiety. I just sleep to fast-forward through life so i don't have to think. I'm thinking of starting to do adderall to see if i can find motivation to do anything

I’m crushing on my fwb. I’m a loser beyond comprehension and she’s fucked in the head so it’s a ticking time bomb. I’ve realized that I’ll never resemble a normal person and that there’s a lot of pain ahead.

>>33410837
Is that abnormal? Aren't you supposed to crush on someone you have an arrangement with to sleep with?

large breasts, shapely legs and butt, thin waist, this lady would probably be hot if she didn't look so cracked out in her face

can i fix her?

Curses, I’m reaping what I sow

>>33410751
This was an interview with company #5. My tip: use a recruiting agency. The jobs aren't as good but they actually get you hired. AI and shitty ATS is cooking this market.

> find love online
> he cheats twice
> chooses another girl over me, a child at that
>cheats then dumps me
>I let him talk to me again because I missed him so badly after almost killing myself for him
> he gives me false hope about love blocks me again for her
> now he is emailing me again

WTF is going on? Why must he toy with me like that? I wish he could have changed but I know no leopard changes their spots that quickly. He clearly does not love me I do not understand what he wants now. All I wanted was for him to love me and he could not do that right.

>>33411207
Add on apparently the account of the child he cheated on me with was just him when I had Discord trace it. Urgh. I just wish everything was the same before the cheating and I could be happy with him but I know he does not want me and it hurts everyday. I was always loyal and isolated and a good girl I was promised marriage only to be cheated on and dumped. It was a year long relationship btw.

>>33411207
>>he cheats twice
bitch u took him back after the first time??

>>33411259
Yes
1 time with an egirl
1 time with an online succubus AI

Then the child happened and he dumped me. But yes I am pathetic. I trusted him because I thought he was the knight who would take me away to see the world.

its really demoralizing, being let go of a job i was good at for sub-metrics, and not being able to get a job pushing fucking shopping carts.

>>33411268
>I thought he was the knight who would take me away to see the world

take note fellas

she loves what you can provide for her not you

>>33411372
He did not provide anything for me but promises and I still loved him despite his mistreatment of me. I was just being traditional like how I was raised. Men can do anything women serve and stay quiet and get blamed because in my case he was my only friend and my boyfriend.i loved him for who he was as he did not provide me tangibly with anything beyond his smile.

32 years old, still living with my narcasistic father, can't get a job, no girlfriend. i'll never live a good life, will i?

why shouldn't i just kill myself?

>>33411417
you stated that you trusted him because of what he could potentially provide, not because you loved him and his smile

>>33411489
Spite tastes so good when you win

>>33411516
i've never won. i will never win.

>>33411523
Never let them rob you of your power

>>33411500
Whatever he hurt me now thanks traditional patriarchal values now no matter what I should kill myself I hate that I keep failing. I thought I did everything right be a virgin be religious find someone who says they are autistic like me be patient wait months forgive everytime but you know what I guess I deserved it and I should have killed my self for him to prove my loyalty. He never thought I was loyal enough even if he was the only person I thought of when I woke up and when I slept. Fuck you anon and fuck love and fuck trying to be a good catholic virgin girl. Men just hate women the feminazis are right everytime.

>>33411549
>Whatever
yea that's what i thought

my buddy would have provided everything you could want, he's catholic and loyal but i think his wife cheated on him

non cheaters need to get better at spotting cheaters

Went to a local show and had a good time. My back is fucking killing me though. Im glad I got out of the house tonight. I didn’t see anyone I knew but I still had fun.

Everyone around me is in a race to the bottom. I need better friends who aren’t drinking thrmselves to death, spiritually and physically. I have made some new friends that have positive outlooks on life, seem kinda joyful, and aren’t into drugs or alcohol. Gonna lean into that and try not to focus on the other people around me that want to degenerate. It’s gonna hurt but it’s all I can do if no one else seeks change.

>>33411566
You are not a traditionally raised woman you do not understand that when men cheat it is our fault in our worldview. You do not understand how my value is tied to him not myself. You have no empathy or solutions at all just “it is your fault” as if I do not already know that. I ended up hospitalized because of my love for him.you do not understand any sacrificial love or any love at all. You are probably a gross old American logger ew just like in my hometown.

>>33411600
>traditionally raised woman
if you were traditionally raised you would have waited until marriage before giving so much of yourself over to him. was he eve vetted by your family?

>>33411529
i've never had power, and i wouldn't trust myself if i did.

>>33411600
>sacrificial love
Respectfully, you are a garden-variety codependent and it’s gonna keep hurting you until you sort it out. I recommend it.

>>33411618
I wanted to escape my family asshole. You try being trapped in a house for 24 years which you cannot leave without supervision. If I could not go online in secret behind their backs I would be ten times more messed up.

Goodness forbid I want to be normal. I hate you I hate you I hate you >>33411629
I am not. I took care of him I liked taking care of him but I guess that makes me a selfish bitch for trying to stop him from killing himself and trying to give him love that his mom never gave him.

just let me win the megamillions tomorrow night, so i can help out my family, buy a little house, convince a cute woman to marry me, have 5 kids, and live a quiet happy life.

This is getting fucking ridiculous. Every day, every night. Can't get a fucking grip. He ghosted me, so fucking what, shit happens to most people. We weren't gay boyfriends. We weren’t dating. Yeah we flirted and were emotionally vulnerable for awhile. So fucking what. Why am I so goddamn attached to him I should not be crashing out every day over this man I am fucking crazy. This is bottom behavior I'm not even a bottom

>>33411657
You are in love men do not understand this on average guess you were in love with what he provided for you lmao nothing you did mattered btw just ask working class fellas kun on here I am sure you did something to deserve your suffering after all it is not as if people can lie /sarcssm/ why you would be hooked on someone without talking to them for a year I do not know.

>>33411628
Your power is your existence

>>33411665
>guess you were in love with what he provided for you
no men are actually capable of loving their partners, especially when you let your family vet them first

>>33411646
>i took care of him I liked taking care of him
Codependent
>but I guess that makes me a selfish bitch
what
>for trying to stop him from killing himself
Codependent
> and trying to give him love that his mom never gave him.
Codependent

>>33411489
Why do you want to?

>>33411709
My family hates me. Fuck you catholic anon my family is my jail. You are a man you get away with everything and have freedom because you have a repulsive phallus. I hope you die. Your friend deserved to be cheated on and so will you when it happens. >>33411715
Well it is all my fault is it not it was my fault he cheated it was my fault I was not enough it is my fault my parents do not even try to get me married and treat me like I am 12.

>>33411709
>>33411665
Strange posts

>>33411549
I'm sorry you went through that.

>>33411740
>treat me like I am 12
sounds like they love you

>>33411721
i'm in my 30s, obese, a failed musician, a virgin, living with my 72 year old dad, just lost a job i was good at and can't find another one, i can't get ahead.

>>33411740
>Well it is all my fault is it not
You have the power to chose
> it was my fault he cheated
You have to power to chose who to keep around and what you tolerate
>it was my fault I was not enough
That’s not how relationships work
>it is my fault my parents do not even try to get me married
You are an adult and have agency
>and treat me like I am 12.
You are an adult and have agency move out
God girl get a grip

>>33411767
None of that is a reason for you to kill yourself, despite what the public might believe. You're a virgin. There's nothing wrong with being a virgin. You can get into shape. Your dad ever try to teach you anything?

>just lost a job i was good at and can't find another one, i can't get ahead
Try to be assertive.

>>33411776
there isn't a problem that exists that my dad thinks can't be solved with a pill. thats all he taught me.

>>33411794
>there isn't a problem that exists that my dad thinks can't be solved with a pill
Do you know how to program? If not, you can always learn.
>thats all he taught me
Then you're not the failure, your dad is. For one. This doesn't make it okay to kill him, so don't even think about it.

>>33411207
>>33411740
Grim. Simply grim. I don't even have energy to insult you, so I'll just say I am sorry this happened to you, I really am.

Instead of seething with anger, I'll ask you this.
Be a pal and tell me where you are from and what background. Maybe I can go there to meet women like you, who aren't you.

>>33411810
Kek what a dickhead

Know you gotta watch your back, 'cause you not just anybody...

Look I’m not the richest dude around. But I can pay for your studies, I can buy you clothes from time to time, we’ll always have the option to eat out if it suits you and we can travel abroad at least once a year, most probably.
But moreover, I can give you stability. I treat you like a queen and a princess at the same time, I’ve never judged you or tried to change you. I adore you just for who you are. I can feel jealousy but I never let that ruin a good night out or cause a fight. I feel you know deep inside I’m the best dude you can have by your side, the way you hold me when we make love is something else.
Leave that dude behind, if he knew what you’re doing he’d leave you without ever looking back, we’ve met in peculiar circumstances and I know and I still want to be with you forever more.

>>33411860
No matter if you in the dope game or the rap game

>>33411880
You mean: Rap game, crack game ain't that different, ya know?

>>33411886
https://youtu.be/zBnoHy8OV9k?si=Rbe5rhyiDoWJxiVY

>>33411872
Who are you?
Text me

>>33411911
? She doesn’t speak English you’re not her why would you want me to text you

I don't wanna have to wait for you to stop in
I know you have more than one option

So...

I'm sick of fucking crying everyday over it. I can't help the fact I repressed it for so long. I can't help the fact I didn't remember till she left. Can't help the fact I let her do that to me, even though I forgot about it for a year. Its my fault I didn't so anything about it. I was taught about bad touching and I still let it happen to me. I can't move on. I was a stupid child. A stupid child who thought he knew better. Who thought it was fine to be touched, according to her. Even though I repressed it. Even though I couldn't help it. I'm sick and sick and sick of it.

I did so much for you. I was so selfless and you said you love me but now you paint a picture of me being some manipulative piece of shit. I fucking hate you with all my heart

>>33412072
I'm simply pointing out that they're probably better options than me.

>>33410315
If you're causing no problems for other people your existence is more of a net positive for the world than the majority of humanity.

>>33411872
Unfuck yourself man, have more self respect.

>>33412166
She looks like a movie star and is half my age. The other girls that pay attention to me don’t look anywhere close as good as her. I’ve let good prospects get away by being too prideful and stubborn, the next girl I find her age and appearance will either not even know I exist or will ask for a yatch as the minimum for me to date her. I wish I was exaggerating.
Doesn’t look like a bimbo either, she’s a girl you can take home and introduce to your family

I feel like I found a bit more closure and acceptance over him within myself tonight
But I've been here before
And continued to struggle and keep crashing out for an entire week after
This cycle has to end eventually, right?
Maybe the ruminations and meltdowns won't be as intense or often this time around

I'm really struggling with addiction to TikTok.
>Simping for pretty girls
>Making videos and obsessed with getting likes and followers
>Sense of community and not being alone even though it is fake
It's actually fucking me up pretty bad. I just deleted my profile but I've done that before and reactivated it a day later. Takes 30 days for it to fully delete. But I've got to let this go I'm not wanting to do anything currently besides be on that app all day

I wonder if Lawyers treat their women like an objec---tion.

She told me to look for her on Zoom, so I used my binoculars.

I just want to piss on a bitch’s face. What causes this deep need for intimacy?

You have people going to Hell and back for limbo...

>>33404517 (OP)
So some bitch on Twitter was posting negative shit about men. So I said feminism won and she's gloating.

The ONLY people to reply were ugly dykes. Even then it wasn't coherent. One was just cursing and the other posted a awkward gif of some celebrity.

I don't know what the one cursing thought she was contributing. You barely know what a woman is to the point where you decided to look like a man, an ugly scene kid at that.

>>33404517 (OP)
life is better now that I don't talk to people anymore
not letting them too close
they want every part of you
and try to turn you evil
now I can be me without judgement
without those stupid mind games

im a girl and i find namefags absolutely revolting

>>33412507
I namefag as Anonymous.

>>33412507
Yeah, unplayable

I'm so depressed that it makes interacting with people a puzzle that I keep fucking up. I know bothering people with my problems is not the answer, so I just drop hints and memes to my friends here and there in the hopes that one of them or my therapist friend will realize and talk to me but I know they won't. He doesn't want to keep doing his job after work, I get that. I think often about how nobody will miss me if I made them hate me. Then I could just go be homeless or whatever and not bother anyone ever again

Even though she's important, no one can get her crown
Wants me to carry her, but even in that I let her down

A guy picked up a some weights, put them down and said "I don't think this is going to work out."

People be like "It's not that deep" but end up drowning...

>>33412667
...In sorrow.

She only liked me a hair but still wants me toupee...

You may think I might change after a few bottles
You don't need to pose like I don't need a new model

Someone in my family decided it'll be a funny prank to take my glasses, after I've been sick for two days, and put them in the middle of the hallway. So when I look for them I can break them.
Haha wow, you're so funny. I hope you choke to death.

>>33412767
how bad is ur vision?

>>33412507
Fair enough.

>>33412646
a guy tried to fit a desk into the living room, but it did not fit through the door. so he tilted it through the dining room and said: the tables have turned.