i cannot look like the man in that image. i'm short, lack a v taper, wide hips, narrow shoulders, have a gross hunched back and thinning hair., a skinny fat ponch that won't go away even if i literally starve myself. why bother if i can't be her fantasy? is there any way to know if attraction is real and i'm not just being taken on a pity date or sapped of cash (which women have more of nowadays so even this concession grows more improbable each passing year). is this why gender studies became popular? some reckoning that a majority of the population is fat, gross, and will never, no matter how hard they try, ever live up to the expectations placed on them when it comes to proper "performance" of their gender? when it comes to the view of society, at least, i am male but incapable of ever being a man.