I beat malenia without doing a challenge run for the first time in forever and it was pretty easy. Other than a point-blank waterfowl or the attack where she summons ghosts her combos are simple to learn.

So I'm a 24yr old christian male. I'm white, tall and fit. I take good care of my appearance. I live on my own and pay all of my own bills. I'm not some creepy incel, I have female friends. I don't hate women. I get plenty of attention from secular women and I've had the option to fool around with some but never did. I've never been on a date or even had my first kiss. I can't stand the thought of being with a woman who already gave herself to another man. I just couldn't even look at her without thinking about it. Most of the attractive Christian girls my age have done things I would count as a body, like oral sex and such. Many of these women follow the typical pattern, they get ran through by chads and then settle for a cuck with rich parents. I don't even know any good-looking women anymore and I feel hopeless. I wanted to find a nice girl and have some kids but it seems impossible. I can't help but feel abandoned by god. I was recently redpilled on the anglo-israel truth when I stumbled onto some old pastor Pete Peters sermons, and now I feel even more Isolated from the church. I don't get how modern dudes are just cool with being with a woman who isn't a virgin, are they really that cucked? I can't seek advice from the older men in the church because their generation was not this depraved. Most men in the church are also weak men who do whatever is easiest anyhow. Sorry for this scatterbrained post, this stuff has been eating at me for a while. Most days I'm cheerful and don't think about these things too much, but every now and then my bubble bursts and I'm overwhelmed with despair. I am grateful to god for giving me the truth and the discernment that I have, but I feel so alone. Any thoughts on this would be much appreciated!