>>40675462
I’ve tried so hard to just move on. I’ve tried so hard to heal or even break even. I’m not even angry anymore. Just incredibly sad. Sad I missed my kids childhoods. She refused to let me even see them and the courts were all too happy to help. Even now they ask “why didn’t you fight harder?” “Why didn’t you file things like this its so easy to have this information?” Like somehow this is all my fault. I promise I’m not acting like I’m innocent here. I would snap over stupid shit sometimes. I can excuse it by saying I was hurting. She would make me sleep on the floor. I was happy to oblige. She would start arguing with me though at times so she was hurting too. My love for Sam is so fucking deep. She could call me and ask me to come over and I would bring dinner and a movie and just be there. I don’t understand how someone like her even exists. I’m no longer angry and I’ve given it all to the universe. I totally forgive her. Because that’s what love does. Begging is an understatement. She’s had these nasty fat slobs. I’m not a 10/10 guy but for fucks sake, I think 168lbs at 41 is great, and I’m muscular and skinny.