>>81833122
i just want to at least give her closure in knowing she was right about everything. i don't know what else to do. that's the only thing on my bucket list. i don't have any friends, any family, anything else. she was the only person in my life who was ever genuinely kind to me and tried to help me. and i threw it all away because i was immature and arrogant. i just don't feel anything anymore. i'm going crazier and crazier every day. even right now i'm doing my best to make this schizo babble seem coherent before i lose myself again.
>>81833172
i don't see the point in getting any older than this. i'm empty. i don't have anything. if she looks at this thread, i want her to at least feel a little bit of happiness knowing i got the punishment i deserved for hurting her.