>>81806426
No, I prefer to keep my ability to think and question. A massage does sound nice though. But not from you.

>>81806497
>It's a weird feeling of "Wtf do I say? Am I doing this right? This isn't gonna last is it? Why am I here?".
This is exactly how I feel, anon. It's the feeling of not wanting to lose them because of something you did. However, I'm starting to see faking the way I act as manipulative. It's also kind of like lying...
I think when you get their attention, you now have more to lose, so anxiety goes up even further.

>>81806518
Yes!! I agree, but I don't implement this thought in practice. I need to practice honesty even if I'm scared my partner might react badly.
Did you have trouble with conflict avoidance, anon?