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I was a sheltered autist. When I went from homeschooling to high school I was at first friendly with people and when I was talking to this cute girl she joked about us dating and being a sheltered autist I took it for real and told everyone about it and the next day she yelled at me about it and told me to fuck off and I just stopped talking to people after that. I had a lot more moments like that later down the line where I acted way more rude or awkward than I thought I was being and once I realized it later I became depressed and even more withdrawn because I thought all I did was hurt people and be rude and nasty to them so I just hid myself from everything out of shame. I didn't have the balls to stand up for my mistakes at the time so I became really self loathing for many years instead. Interacting with people to this day scares me for this reason.