>>508028548
Why do they need their own specific one, just call the regular one like a normal person

>be me
>23
>last year of undergrad, prepping for law school
>joined the army, have friends and make friends easily
>was homeschooled, was rough. Family didn’t let me leave the house on my own for years
>parents discouraged sex and dating, now find it hard to talk with women outside of a platonic setting
>pretty sure I have latent trauma, will sit and mull over being isolated and that I lost out on my high school experience for hours or days at a time
>hate myself, sometimes to the point of suicidal ideation, feel like I could’ve done something to get out sooner and had been able to live a life

What do anons? This has been affecting me for years now and though I made a lot of progress (I used to be a complete NEET who couldn’t get out of bed) I feel like it’s not enough, like I’m doing all of this in spite of being homeschooled and sometimes it feels like I never left.

I’m especially bitter and angry about how it’s affected dating for me, sometimes I shake or shiver when a woman is even close to me or touches me even if it’s not intentional. I feel very nervous around women a lot too and I think it’s directly because of this but I can’t move past it. I’ve lost my virginity last year but even then I don’t feel like I’m comfortable around women.

What do I do? Can I fix this or am I fucked?