I finally lost my virginity and it wasn’t that great. I wasn’t able relax and couldn’t come and my partner was really preoccupied with it. She kept asking me what do I like but I was too ashamed to tell her I have no idea as all my previous experience was with sex toys. She ghosted me eventually which makes sense… but it sucks.

I know that I need to get back on dating apps and find another woman but I feel like I would be inflicting my inexperience on her. Previously I thought that it would be fine for me to be on the receiving end for a while, get some experience and switch things up but apparently I’m bad even at receiving.