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7/21/2025, 10:36:22 PM
>>40442197
>I dont want to say "oh I act like a man" because I dont, and yet compared to other pooners, what even is "acting like a man"? I act like a man compared to the average pooner at least, everything from my interests, hobbies, and attitude.
I understand this to an extent. The concept of "womanhood" never resonated with me, but I don't think "feeling" like a man is really a thing either. So much of "womanhood" pertains to our biology like being nurturing and raising children. Those things aren't applicable to me because I was born with reproductive defects and am same sex attracted. I feel a lot of discomfort with those qualities being applied to me simply because I was born with a taint.
Long before I even knew about my infertility, pregnancy seemed like incomprehensible bodyhorror. I wanted nothing to do with it. In a lot of ways, the social exclusion that comes with being an infertile woman is akin to being a third gender or intersex. You're expected to "correct" it and live out the qualities that were imposed on to you as a woman. But it's such bullshit - I never signed up to be female, so WHY should I spend my life trying to live out a binary fantasy?
>>40457065
>hated femminine clothes due to sensory issues
Word. I still feel sick to my stomach when wearing feminine clothing. For me, I don't think the desire to troon is related to trauma. My first egg moment was when I was in kindergarten. Long before any major trauma happened. I told my teacher that I hated being a girl and she jokingly asked if I wanted a sex change operation. My knee jerk reaction was that I'll get that done when I'm older. I had no idea that was an option for people until she brought it up. But after years of repping, I fear that attempting to transition would only lead me to hyperfixate on passing and become even more critical of myself. I admit that non-passoids are a bit jarring to look at.
>I dont want to say "oh I act like a man" because I dont, and yet compared to other pooners, what even is "acting like a man"? I act like a man compared to the average pooner at least, everything from my interests, hobbies, and attitude.
I understand this to an extent. The concept of "womanhood" never resonated with me, but I don't think "feeling" like a man is really a thing either. So much of "womanhood" pertains to our biology like being nurturing and raising children. Those things aren't applicable to me because I was born with reproductive defects and am same sex attracted. I feel a lot of discomfort with those qualities being applied to me simply because I was born with a taint.
Long before I even knew about my infertility, pregnancy seemed like incomprehensible bodyhorror. I wanted nothing to do with it. In a lot of ways, the social exclusion that comes with being an infertile woman is akin to being a third gender or intersex. You're expected to "correct" it and live out the qualities that were imposed on to you as a woman. But it's such bullshit - I never signed up to be female, so WHY should I spend my life trying to live out a binary fantasy?
>>40457065
>hated femminine clothes due to sensory issues
Word. I still feel sick to my stomach when wearing feminine clothing. For me, I don't think the desire to troon is related to trauma. My first egg moment was when I was in kindergarten. Long before any major trauma happened. I told my teacher that I hated being a girl and she jokingly asked if I wanted a sex change operation. My knee jerk reaction was that I'll get that done when I'm older. I had no idea that was an option for people until she brought it up. But after years of repping, I fear that attempting to transition would only lead me to hyperfixate on passing and become even more critical of myself. I admit that non-passoids are a bit jarring to look at.
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