I think I may have become a drone at some point. I honestly prefer a full work day with a chapter of a novel during my lunch break, followed by an episode of a short show and an hour or two of a video game, to a full day completely free to myself to do as I please. It's the structure I think, combined with the sense that I've done something "productive" for the day that is for the most part done on autopilot. On a weekend you're either killing time with online trash and obligatory hobbies you're told will make you happier, or reluctantly forcing yourself to deal with responsibilities rather than being made to. To be frank my lack of initiative will doom me when I inevitably live alone for the second half of my life. These are pretty childish things to have occupying your thoughts all the time, but my brain seems to obsess with organising and structuring extremely irrelevant matters at the expense of the spontaneous things one must do as an adult. It's all procrastination in the end which I've always known subconsciously, yet I continue to kick the can down the road. You should see my hentai blacklist, it's so extensive even I don't know what's on there anymore.