Goodness gracious it was over 35°C today, and I'm honestly pretty spent. As much as it pains me I don't think I'll manage to fully catch up with the thread tonight. So I will prep one more post, hop in the bathtub and return to you all tomorrow.
>>40117152
That was really sweet, by the way.. thank you for that.
>>40116262
I definitely forgot mine today, a mistake I won't be making twice!
>>40107015
>hard to know which of my instincts and neuroses are worth something
If you need external sanity checks, we've got your back.
>to get there from being almost bedbound & socially atrophied
>I'm too unfocused and distraught to sit down & make a plan typically x(
I think I get what you are looking for, generally. And I think your plans are already going in a perfectly sensible direction! Please give us an update after you saw your therapist, alright? As for discord, do give our unofficial server a chance if you haven't yet, lots of very nice people last I checked, I am generally available in dms from there but I rarely if ever check the server myself since I am just too busy with the threads alone.
>>40108969
This is actually very interesting, it reads almost like executive dysfunction. I can't diagnose you obviously but if you feel like you have some paralysis where you KNOW you need to to the thing but somehow.. don't? This is an ADHD tell sometimes. Can also be from depression and other things but.. it is worth investigating. Is it really a motivation thing? Worth pondering.