When I was little I needed a lot of help and people wanted to give it to me. I'm still that way but now I'm older and no one wants to. I'm not asking for a lot, I just need a few bits of assistance that would show I'm a worthwhile person worth caring for and I could finally overcome the darkness that has ruined my adult life. I am smothered by inertia and I could do great things if I just had someone to take my hand for once and say 'I believe in you let's make you better'

What is the easiest way to stop seeming like an unlovable leech (because I can't control the circumstances that put me here) and start seeming like the crippled kitten in the wheelchair, an adorable but hurting thing people want to help because they are confident it will be independent and back on it's feet?

(also it can't include asking my family, they hate me now and none of them would believe I've actually given up the bad things that got me here, even though it's been many years)

cripple crimothy