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>You can finish the job without committing suicide in public or blowing your head off in front of people or traumatizing hotel staff. And regardless, it's evil to traumatize other people because you want to get out of life.
Foid brain moment. Have you ever actually done the research to kill yourself? It's not that easy to kill yourself with 100% reliability especially if you don't like in Muttmerica and don't have guns or a car whatever there are methods like Xanax + alcohol + tylenol but what if you're not a depressed white girl but my gf literally did this 7 times and lives XD there's shit like electrocution or hanging but that has like 50% success and you are fucked for life if you live not to mention DYING IS FUCKING PAINFUL

>People can travel deep into the wilderness to kill themselves if need be with a shotgun, doesn't need to be in a hotel room or in public.
Who fucking cares yeah...I do feel bad for the people who get traumatized or whatever or have to clean/scrape me off the pavement but in the end I wouldn't hurt anyone. If I jumped I would make sure I don't fall on anyone since can kill lole.

Suicide is already and incredibly selfish and traumatic thing to do. If you succeed you will traumatized all your friends and family since seeing you in a casket even if you died alone in a forest ia heartwrenching. And surviving isn't better anyways my gf took a fatal dose of pills like 7 times at her parents house where she lives and called 9/11 because she panicked and didn't want her parents to see her dead well I'm sure they were fucking freaking out that their daughter said she was dying and passed out and 9/11 came...I get it emotional reasoning but yeah suicide is always selfish.

If I had a choice...I would just disappear without causing harm to anyone. Not like anyone would miss me anyways.

Had a nightmare again. So the dream was that I get kidnapped by a serial killer he had bodies all over his place and he has me in a basement. He tortured me for a little bit but leaves the room and Im able to get free from being strapped down to a gurney. Then I strangle him after he walks back in the room. I make sure he is dead and go through his pockets and find car keys. I go to the garage and find a van. I drive the van for a couple hours north figuring I just need to get the fuck out of there. In the van there is a cell phone. I call the cops and tell them what happened and they say I need to come back to a police station so I go to turn around. This is where it gets really scary to me tho. The phone rings and I see its a name in the contacts. For some reason I answer the phone and its my dad on the line. At first I tell him what happened and that I got away but then it dawns on me why is my dad in the serial killers contact list under a fake name? I go to ask him how did he get this number and he just repeats back you got away? But in a disappointed tone. I immediately hang up and then wake up from the nightmare. My heart was pounding and usually I always wake up at the most horrible part of dreams. In this case the realization that my dad was in on the serial killers plot. What does it mean chat?