>16 , twinky but pre hrt, mom had kicked me out for coming out as a tranny a few weeks prior
>staying with my dad for summer
>no positive validation in my life, tried to seek it out through the internet
>start talking with a 28 year old near me
>he comes over one morning
>im super super nervous, hes also pretty ugly
>makes me blow him (had no idea how to, still scared of most sex things out of fear of disappointing ppl 2day) & puts me on my back & fucks me
>he came in me, it all kinda hurt, he used vaseline as lube
>pisses off pretty quickly
>dms me relentlessly on snapchat for the next year (i never even opened the chat again) until i deleted my account

pretty awful experience, dysphoria only made it & future experiences worse. I still think id have all the same insecurities today if I hadnt done that to be honest ;c