>comfy union job
>shove a bunch of emone into retirement
>spend the rest on cool collector's editions and computer parts

You can’t hate me more than I hate myself. The sheer contempt and hatred that I harbour for myself would doubtlessly move lesser men to suicide. Also Meirabroken or something I dunno

Had a pretty bad trip after taking a ~20mg cannabinoid edible and ended up a paranoid, anxious mess. Mostly because I just couldn't stop running through different scenarios in my head. I didn't do anything wild because I knew it was all delusions but it still left me pretty shook so I think I'm gonna quit since I've been having bad trips more and more frequently. Like the fear of things going bad makes it more likely to happen. There were parts of it that were pretty insightful, and I've got a bit of a better understanding of some of my fears as well as an understanding of how some people can end up believing the craziest conspiracies. The whole reason I was using cannabis though is because I wanted a break from my never ending stream of thoughts, having it just turbocharge my neuroticism defeats the purpose. Pretty sure all my isolation plays a big role in this.