>>512426364
I was smoking between $400 and $800 worth of dabs (butane hash oil) every month. Wake up? Dab. Couple hours later? Dab. Lunch? Dab. Afternoon? Dab. Evening? Dab. 11PM? Dab. 3 AM? Dab. Girlfriend would wake up in the middle of the night (because she was also using it heavily), dab time. Bought a really fancy piece of glassware, Evan Shore quartz bangers, fancy blowtorch, carb cap custom made by a guy, etc.

As a result I don't remember the period between 18 and 23 years old. It's all just a blur with some sort of slideshow memories of parties and sitting at my computer, and my desk at work during the time. I quit and my girlfriend left me because "I changed". Relapsed, ended up with an even more disgusting whore, quit again, same thing all over again. I found it made me extremely anxious and uncomfortable, like a prisoner in my own body.

Now I exclusively drink alcohol and I'm downing 6-10 7% IPAs a night. Ballooned up to 180lbs all in my gut, I sweat constantly, can't go a single day without drinking. I've gone from the flower jew to the liquid jew. It's not worth it brothers. I love the clarity and peace alcohol gives me, but I can actively feel myself dying.