as a socially awkward child i read copious amounts of self-help books about socializing including books by cia and other letter agency members. i dont remember anything about these books consciously anymore but im sure theyve permanently warped my personality. i have brainwashed myself and theres no undoing it, im constantly interrogating myself on whether or not i am manipulating someone subconsciously.
are you paranoid and extremely self conscious robots?

what will happen if im honest on the patient form they give when you go to the doctor that asks if you have depressive or suicidal thoughts?