im literally so pretty and cute and nice and soulful and a pure angel but everyone hates me for no reason and i will never find love

i just met one of my friends friend because she told us how weird they are and we wanted to talk to them ourselves. i cant believe she would be willing to befriend such a lowly excuse of a human being and then then go on to say shit like "i have no problem letting people go" which is an actual thing she just dropped in a conversation we had not long ago. its like im being compared to this fucking retard. as if being told that i dont matter to her and she could just stop being mmny friend in an instant wasnt enough i have to deal with the knowledge that she is friends with people lilke this. she has no care for who she befriends. i could be at the lowest of the low in her huge ass group of friends and i wouldnt know because she just talks to anyone. how do i know im not just another lab rat that she keeps around just ebcause she thinks im weird???