I'm agnostic about whether God exists or whether law of attraction is real at all
I've been trying to manifest lots of easy money since I'm kinda poor. I do want to receive lots of easy money very soon. But I also want law of attraction to be false. I want law of attraction to be false because I think it entails a lot of bad things like existential dread, solipsism or at least partial solipsism, no free will, existential nihilism, no all loving all powerful God, etc
But if it's false I'll be poor or have to work hard to make money both of which I don't want to do.
But if law of attraction is false that means God can be real, solipsism can be totally false, libertarian free will can exist, moral realism can be true, etc etc
What I'm most scared of is law of attraction is true, God isn't real etc etc and I still remain poor because I manifest myself not getting rich because I don't want to get rich because if I get rich I'll have more existential dread.
So I'll get the worst of both worlds.

But ideally I'd like God to actually be real, Free will to actually exist, solipsism to actually be false etc etc AND also be really rich lots of fast easy money.
Next best thing is poverty but God is actually real, free will actually exists etc etc

But I'm afraid no matter what I do solipsism is true God isn't real free will doesn't exist etc etc and I will remain poor because I don't want proof law of attraction exists.
If law of attraction actually does exist and God actually doesn't and free will actually doesn't and I can't like actually make them exist then I'd at least like to be really rich and retired even if I have existential dread

Does this make sense?
What do I do? I feel like I'm going to be an absolute broke miserable loser forever and I'll lose everything in this world even though God doesn't exist and free will doesn't exist and solipsism is true
How can I at least disprove law of attraction? It feels completely non falsifiable especially for me