I've spent the past couple years trying to grow out of this place and leave it behind, I did successfully for a while, but now i'm back, somehow I still haven't been able to figure out how to socialized correctly and this is the only place that will accept me even somewhat. Is there a portion of gen Z that's doomed like this? Kant was some retard meet as well, but i'm no philosopher or great thinker.
Every generation will have the terminally outcasted, and even within this group I still feel so lonely. I don't think I will ever feel the love or warmth I so desire, when I talk about this people assume I mean sex but I just want someone to think about me throughout the day as I think about them.

It doesn't matter how much a woman is into me initially. I have the same problem with women who approach me to tell me i'm good looking, ask me out, simp for me initially. They ALL lose interest in me anywhere from 5 mins - a few weeks after they get to know me.


Just a few months ago a girl started showing interest in me again, she'd grab my hand, compliment me, for the first time in my life I actually managed to take her to bed. Afterwards things were good and we still made flirty comments at each other and said we should do it again but this too died down and now we're just awkward acquaintances and I can tell she wishes she could tell me to fuck off.

I don't understand how ALL women have the same programming. A woman can be head over heels for you and then she'll see you cross your legs the wrong way, get the ick and be disgusted at your mere presence from that point forward.
Why are they ALL like this? There is so little fucking variation in women. An alt goth girl and a blonde starbucks hoe have more in common with each other than 2 autist incels playing COD together.

This shit will be the reason why I jump in front of a train someday. I'm fucking sick of nearing my 30s and not being able to get what every little skibidi toilet faggot 15yo gets handed to him as a byproduct of simply being alive.
It's not like i'm some kind of weirdo that REEEEEEs at women, i'm just shy and awkward.
Fuck.

why are only mentally ill cutter girls attracted to me? i never hit on women because it usually goes badly but these types of girls have made the first move on me and i just go along with it because they’re hot and i’m lonely. i don’t even want a gf but i am lonely so i’ll take any company i can get