there isn't enough good art of my niche fetish and AI can't replicate it well, so I need to take it upon myself to create
but every time I start to draw, I get embarrassed looking at how amateur it is and also don't want to spend a long time working it out
I guess I could trace other artists for now, but this is more about my ADHD in general, I'm undiagnosed and want to mitigate that because becoming an artist isn't the only goal I've struggled to focus on