How do i keep up hope/motivation when everything seems so bleak?

I finally wanted to transition after years of repressing, but any official method available in my country has a BMI limit.
I have to lose around 30kgs before i can even begin to be considered in the system.
I have struggled with weight since i was a teenager, so it seems really bleak for me to lose so much weight, just to be put on a waitlist afterwards.
Economically, alternative methods are implausible considering my neet status, but it seems to be my only way out.

When everything seems kinda far out, or hard to reach, how do you guys keep your chins up?