sup /x/, at the end of the week I'm starting a 7 day cold turkey detox from alcohol, cigarettes, caffeine, sugar, refined carbohydrates and anything bad for me in general to purify my body so I can start taking estrogen. I was wondering is there any way to channel the anguish from this into occult pursuits in a ritualistic manner? My main concern is that I am doing it in an astrologically inauspicious time of the year but this is my only chance to do it. Any advice on meditation or anything I can do to take advantage of this transformative experience and turn the negativity into a kind of metaphysical rebirth?

I smoke a pack a day and drink a liter of vodka once a week in addition to drinking 4 energy drinks a day and eating
nothing but processed food so I imagine this will be quite difficult for me