I caught up I think. Given it is late and I am too tired to be super coherent (but very satisfied with my work) I would like to say: thank you, everyone. For posting, for supporting me and others, and for helping a wonderful member of this little community on top of that: yourselves. Mom has passed away one week ago. Now she is buried. Several of you told me that she would be proud, and.. knowing her, damn right she was proud of me. I was blessed with her in many ways, and her being as mindful of her privacy as she was would scold me for prattling on and on about her. Sometimes in life we don't get to choose the doors that slam shut for us. But what we can do, what we must, is let go of the handle.

Goodbye Mom.

And goodnight, everyone.
>>40059101
>it'd be very cathartic to see the normalfags I went to school with die for Israel (literally).
Not gonna lie I fully understand your resentment for your former classmates. Fuck 'em. But I would much rather spite them by helping you soar, it would also involve less collateral.
>>40058482
I am glad you are safe.
>The last two months, I tried to process the relationship, and my life before but... I feel more miserable than in there. Girls, would it ever go away? So I can just be normal again?
yes. It is called backdraft, same as the firefighter term. After leaving the abusive env you open a door that was locked shut to survive the whole mess, and the flareup is MAJOR.
It will pass. You can look into it, it is a well documented phenomenon, and as terrible as that is, it means 1) you are healing and 2) it WILL get better, and you can find stories of others having gone through the same. You are not alone.