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>schizoid neet larp
I did this from 18-29 (today). I was diagnosed as schizoid and autistic behavior. Psych (male) told me after 3 sessions to consider becoming a hermit and making the best of it.
I think some people are like this, but most of those that are were made by some fucked situation early in life or just born ugly or ostracized for whatever reason.
I was a super energetic kid, wanted a ton of friends, did anything including "jestermaxxing" to full on psycho larping with masks and memorizing normie conversations from books and online so I could pretend to be normal.
Nothing ever worked.
Even if I formed my own groups (at around your age in college and online too) by introducing and collecting a bunch of strangers, eventually the group moves on without me...
All this resulted in me learning to be unable to show my authentic self, to the point where I struggle with finding things I like or desire at all.

If you can turn it around, do it, but honestly? The psychs advice was the only thing I can truly envision myself doing unfortunately.
Being here on r9k I often get depressed by so many people doing the tfw no gf sadfrog memes. I don't even care for a gf anymore its so far off my radar.
I just wish I had friends or at least acquaintances that care about me a little bit.

You know those japs that end up as stains on a floor? I really don't wish to go like that in old age. Found only because of some late payments decomposed on the floor...