>>714101518
Last time I had a real friend was back in 2013 when I was still a teen. We knew each other for 8 years at that point and the day I had to move I cut all contact with him. Completely ghosted him, I wanted a fresh start so badly that I wished to cut out of my life the only man willing to be my friend, hoping a new and fresh start would allow me to find solutions and opportunities towards fixing my broken family. I manipulated all of my family to agree to move away, it was my fucking stupid idea! And now 12 years later I'm still alone, no friends, all dreams, ambitions and prospect have withered into nothing, and learned that you can not fix something that isn't there, that never was real, never truly existed; my family. I learned my lesson but I'm certain I will be paying the consequences for me being a cunt for rest of my life.