>>81847484
everything in life feels so worthless when you're all alone. i wish i had people i could create happy memories and live real experiences with. stuff that'll stick with me forever and i'll remember even on my deathbed. that's literally all i need out of life. but i'll never have it because i'm mentally ill, old and stuck in the middle of nowhere in some eastern european village for the rest of my life. i just feel so hopeless and stuck. just like you, i feel anxious and i feel like crying every second i'm awake. it's like that feeling after an accident where you know you're gonna die and it's only a matter of time and you can't delay it anymore. i tried so hard to change my cirumstances only to fall down in the exact same place every time. i just wanna die and end my suffering already.
>>81847504
trust me, even at its worst, the quality of life there is a billion times better than whatever we've got going on here