Got my hands on some seemingly legit 4-MMC last weekend after not seeing 3-MMC in NA for a year (abused the shit out of it during 2020-2022, literally stimfapped so much that I may have permanently damaged my finger joints). Was NOT expecting my right eye to twitch that much (never done MDMA) and kind of thought I fucked up bad from that but I can see why it has the reputation it does.
The temptation to stuff my nose down a bag of this every few weekends is still there but I just can't see myself falling down that hole anymore; I have a decent job and in my late 20's so my body can't take the level of abuse it used to anymore so there's just too much to lose now.
Also constantly have to remind myself how much it's fucking with my emotions; been three days now and all I want to do is sleep and feel strong bouts of mopey/angriness like a bitch on her period. Knowing the pharmacology it makes sense but it's a bit too much of a weight to bear even if I know it's coming and prepare.
Anyway sorry for the blogpost but it's been a dark bumpy road for me and nobody in my life knows about this immensely degenerate aspect so I gotta get it out somewhere. Godspeed you freaky faggots.